hey everyone

went looking at cats ... couldn't handle it yet ... everyone looked
like him or cried like him ... so i decieded to put it off for a
bit ... i am feeling depressed too cause i really miss him ... my mom
keeps telling me to adopt like a one or two year old cause then its
already trained but can i ask everyone an honest question ?? were u
guys afarid when u adopted another animal that was older that it might
die at an early age too ?? the vet has told me they can check for a
heart issues and on so forth but i am just worried and i guess a bit
scared .... is this all normal ?? i been crying the last two days again
and i been having odd dreams about him ...

thanks for listerning and so for babbling on and on