Thanks for your Story. Havn't verified it yet......indeed to do so
may be at great cost........

MC


Perhaps the Below Branden Quotes may have some relevance......

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Positive self-esteem operates as, in effect, the immune system of
the consciousness, providing resistance, strength, and a capacity
for regeneration. When self-esteem is low, our resilience in the
face of life's adversities is diminished. We crumble before
vicissitudes that a healthier sense of self could vanquish. We tend
to be more influenced by the desire to avoid pain than to experience
joy. Negatives have more power over us than positives.


Sometimes the subconscious mind manifests a wisdom several steps or
even years ahead of the conscious mind, and has its own way of
leading us toward our destiny.


If we do not believe in ourselves- neither in our efficacy nor in
our goodness- the universe is a frightening place.


In nathaniel_branden@y..., Rick <ricks550@y...> wrote:
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> http://groups.yahoo.com/group/RicksPlace/
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> This is a semi-long story, with a BIG point, which makes it a
worthy read.
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> Born in Limerick, Ireland, in 1818, Marie Gilbert came to Paris in
the 1840's to make her fortune as a dancer and performer. Taking
the name Lola Montez (her mother was of distant Spanish descent),
she claimed to be a flamenco dancer from Spain. By 1845 her career
was languishing, and to survive she became a courtesan-quickly one
of the more successful in Paris.
>
> Only one man could salvage Lola's dancing career: Alexandre
Dujarier, owner of the newspaper with the largest circulation in
France, and also the newspaper's drama critic. She decided to woo
and conquer him. Investigating his babits, she discovered that he
went riding every morning. An excellent horsewoman herself, she
rode out one morning and "accidentally" ran into him. Soon they
were riding together every day. A few weeks later Lola moved into
his apartment.
>
> For a while the two were happy together . With Dujarier's help,
Lola began to revive her dancing career. Despite the risk to his
social standing, Dujarier told friends he would marry her in the
spring. (Lola had never told him that she had eloped at age
ninieteen with an Englishman, and was still legally married.)
Although Dujarier was deeply in love, his life started to slide
downhill.
>
> His fortunes in business changed and influential friends began to
avoid him. One night Dujarier was invited to a party, attended by
some of the wealthiest young men in Paris. Lola wanted to go too
but he would not allow it. They had their first quarrel, and
Dujarier attended the party by himself. There, hopelessly drunk, he
insulted an influential drama crititic, Jean-Baptiste Rosemond de
Beauvallon, perhaps because of something the critic had said about
Lola. The following morning Beauvallon challenged him to a duel.
Beauvallon was one of the best pistol shots in France. Dujarier
tried to apologizie, but the duel took place, and he was shot and
killed. Thus ended the life of one of the most promising young men
of Paris society . Devasted, Lola left Paris.
>
> In 1846 L:ola Montez found herself in Munich, where she decided to
woo and conquer King Ludwig of Bavaria. The best way to Ludwig, she
discovered, was through his aide-de-camp, Count Otto von Rechberg, a
man with a fondness for pretty girls. One day when the count was
breakfasting at an outdoor cafe, Lola rode by on her horse,
was "accidentally" thrown from her saddle, and landed at Rechberg's
feet. The count rushed to help her and was enchanted. He promised
to introduce her to Ludwig.
>
> Rechberg arranged an audience with the king Lola, but when she
arrived in the anteroom, she could hear the king saying he was too
busy to meet a favor-seeking stranger. Lola pushed aside the
sentries and entered his room anyway. In the process, the front of
her dress somehow got torn (perhaps by her, perhaps by one of the
sentries), and to the astonishment of all, most especially the king,
her bare breast were brazenly exposed. Lola was granted her
audience with Ludwig. Fifty-five hours later she made her debut on
the Bavarian stage:the reviews were terrible, but that did not stop
Ludwig from arranging more performances.
>
> Ludwig was, in his own words, "bewitched" by lola. He started to
appear in public with her on his arm, and then he bought and
furnished an apartment for her on one of Munich's most fashionable
boulevards. Although he had been known as a miser, and was not
given to flights of fancy, he started to shower Lola with gifts and
to write poetry for her. Now his favored mistress, she catapulted
to fame and fortune overnight.
>
> Lola began to lose her sense of proportion. One day when she was
out riding, an elderly man rode ahead of her, a bit too slowly for
her liking. Unable to pass him, she began to slash him with her
riding crop. On another occasion she took her dog, unleashed, out
for a stroll. The dog attacked a passerby, but instead of helping
the man get the dog away, she whipped him with the leash. Incidents
like this infuriated the stolid citizens of Bavaria, but Ludwig
stood by Lola and even had her naturalized as a Bavarian citizen.
The king's entourage tried to wake him to the dangers of the affair,
but those who criticized Lola were summarily fired.
>
> While Bavarian who had loved their king now outwardly disrespected
him, Lola was made a countess, had a new palace built for herself,
and began to dabble in politics, advising Ludwig on policy. She was
the most powerful force in the kingdom. Her influence in the king's
cabinet continued to grow, and she treated the other ministers with
disdain. As a result, riots broke out throughout the realm. A once
peaceful land was virtually in the grip of civil war, and students
everywhere were chanting "Raus mit Lola!"
>
> By February of 1848, Ludwig was finally unable to withstand the
pressure. With great sadness he ordered Lola to leave Bavaria
immediately. She left, but not until she was paid off. For the
next five weeks the Bavarans' wrath was turned against their
formerly beloved king. In March of that year, he was forced to
abdicate.
>
> Lola Montez moved to England. More than anything she needed
respectability, and despite being married (she still had not
arranged a divorce form the Englishman she had wed years before),
she set her sights on George Trafford Heald, a promising young army
officer who was the son of an influential barrister. Although he
was ten year younger than Lola, and could have chosen a wife among
the prettiest and wealthiest young girls of English society, he
moved to Portugal, where he lived in poverty. After a few months
his short life ended in a boating accident.
>
> A few years later the man who published Lola Montez's
autobiography went bankrupt.
>
> In 1853 Lola moved to California, where she met and married a man
named Pat hull. Their relationship was as stormy as all the others,
and she left Hull for another man. He took to drinking and fell
into a deep depression that lasted until he died, four year later,
still a relatively young man.
>
> At the age of forty-one, Lola gave away her clothes and finery and
turned to God. She toured America, lecturing on religious topics,
dressed in white and wearing a halolike white headgear. She died
two years later, in 1861.
>
> Intererpretation
>
> Lola Montez attracted men with her wiles, but her power over them
went beyond the sexual. It was through the force of her character
that she kept her lovers enthralled. Men were sucked into the
maelstrom that she churned up around her. The felt confused, upset,
but the strength of the emotions she stirred also made them feel
more alive.
>
> As is often the case with infection, the problems would only arise
over time. Lola's inherent instability would begin to get under her
lovers' skin. They would find themselves drawn into her problem,
but their emotional attachment to her would make them want to help
her. This was the crucial point of the disease- for Lola Montez
could not be helped. Her problems were too drep. Once the lover
identified with them he was lost. He would find himself embroiled
in quarrels. The infection would spread to his family and friends,
or, in the case of Ludwig, to an entire nation. The only solution
would be to cut her off, or suffer an eventual collapse.
>
> The infecting-character type is not restricted to women; it has
nothing to do with gender. It stems from an inward instability that
radiates outward, drawing disaster upon itself. There is almost a
desire to destroy and unsettle . You could spend a lifetime
studying the pathology of infecting characters, but don't waste your
time-just learn the lesson. When you suspect you are in the
presence of an infector, don't argue, don't try to help, don't pass
the person on to your friends, or you will become enmeshed. Flee
the infector's presence or suffer the consequences.
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