Gina

I seemed to have got the quietest quiet a could get that weekend and it was
enough I think to push my heart voice to come forward. I spoke words which
arose in the heart instead of speaking my script or stories and it was a new
experience for me. Since doing that I feel more confidence within myself and
feel more centred in my heart. Its a good feeling. Sometimes the tensions of
discomfort needs to get to its worst with me before I break through the wall.

I cant find my book to check what the cocoon stage is...

Katherine

--- In mysslist@yahoogroups.com, Gina <eternallyoptimystic@...> wrote:
>
> Dear Katherine,
>
> Perhaps that quiet part of yourself is what St. Teresa would call the
> cocooning phase? I'm hardly ever quiet but have been much, much quieter
> this last 1.5 yrs. Now with my children in Spain, I'm quieter than
> ever!!!!
>
> My exception was today. I had coffee with Mary, a woman who is new to the
> area. We melded, fused and flowed like long lost sisters. It is the very
> first COMMUNITY I've felt since moving here! Well, besides Scot and his
> gigantic family, 10 siblings. YIPPEE, it is a beginning!!!!!
>
> We are thinking about starting a group in the area. One idea that came up
> was a group around Forgiveness, Lord knows I need it. Has anyone got any
> good ideas as to how it could be structured?? It would be VERY IMPORTANT
> not to go into Woundology!!
>
> BLESSINGS of GRACE,
> Gina
>
>
>
> On Tue, Jun 30, 2009 at 7:04 AM, iveeatenatoe <toveclan@...>wrote:
>
> >
> >
> > My voice has been going quiet for sometime. I have been stuck in a "I dont
> > know what to say" mode in group conversations for a long time.I went to a
> > weekend course this weekend and found I could hardly get a word out. I
> > literally was silent but it wasnt comfortable silence. I desparately wanted
> > to fill the silence but simply couldnt. I'm still not sure what was going on
> > there or what archetype may have had control of me that weekend. Gradually
> > as the weekend progressed this part of me did find the courage to speak
> > without script or story and since I have come back I have felt more
> > confident and safer within myself.
> >
> > I read a wonderful poem by Kim Rosen yesterday and she talks about the
> > abuser and the abused and it made me realise I have been both the abused
> > and... AND the abuser to myself and that I need a voice within me to stop
> > that abuser of me for I have been doing to myself in my head what was done
> > to me. I can remember saying I would never do to anyone else what was done
> > to me but it is a reaslisation to learn that here I am doing it to
> > myself...makes me feel a deeper understanding of the person whose behaviour
> > was abusive to wards me.
> >
> > Katherine
> >
> >
> >
>
>
>
> --
> Gina
> I've clicked for peace! Have you?
> www.tenmillionclicksforpeace.org/?sid=42952c450WJu5466kW8095556&s=1
>
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