>It appears that you are suffering the reptiles that Myss talks about
>in her book and CD's You state that you where born a Mystic and have
>suffered because of your difference. On the Cd's I got the sense
>that sucking it up was part of our work, and the reptiles would
>always be with us.

Hmmm... I got the opposite message. That our job was to find them and
chase them out of the castle. The messages these reptiles carry are
toxic. The biggest reptile I found in the castle was the one that
says people should like me and I should care about their opinion of
me. Wrong. I have come to understand that I need to follow my heart
and my intuition, trust the Universe to lead, and let others have
whatever opinion of me they wish. It is none of my business.

The original poster wrote about God punishing her, and that is also a
HUGE reptile - that there is a being sitting in judgement, ready to,
on a whim, if we step one foot "wrong" (whatever wrong is...), to
crush us for screwing up. Run that reptile out of your castle
immediately!

:-)

Janis