So...

I have DID along with a few other things like chronic PTSD, depression, blah,
blah. After a huge fight with my ex...I started contacted therapists...again.
I met with one today whose philosophy for treatment is - she will NEVER speak
with the alters - period. She says she's not certain they want me to get well
and so if they ever come out, she will refuse to speak to them and will call me
back out (as if she'd be that 'powerful'...I just heard one of them say). She
did nothing for me but increase the size of my ever-present migraine and get the
screaming started in my head. She said that her goal would be total integration
(she didn't ask us) and she wouldn't settle for less. I asked her if she wanted
to kill us...she said no - she just wanted there to be 1 me. So much screaming!
I came home and purchased alcohol and have been drinking for the last 2 hours. I
mean really - OMFG! So...after she said all that - she said she didn't have any
experience with DID and gave me a list of referrals. She still wants me to see
her for the depression and the trauma though and Jane told her 'Well...we can't
work through
the trauma without having the others come out to relive it; and since you're so
inexperienced with dealing with the likes of us - we'll pass!' Poor therapist
seems a bit offended. Has anyone else come across a therapist whose philosophy
is to not speak to the alters? I wonder if they know how rude that is and how
unhelpful. I don't know half of what happened to us as kids...hell - I'm a
little foggy about my daily adult life. I don't think she gets it.

Anyway. I'm done venting.
Thanks,




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