What do you do when you just can't stand it anymore? I mean, I've
really, really had enough. And the worst part is that I can't talk
to anyone about it; nobody here knows about his DID.
Twice yesterday he told our daughter, "I'm not Daddy." She's four
years old. She shouldn't have to deal with this. And that's just
the tip of the iceberg. He's ONCE AGAIN changing our life plans and
wanting to move (read: escape) to another city. Well, I'm not doing
it again. I'm just not. I've put up with this for fourteen years.
Now I'm putting my foot down. If he needs to go, he can go. But
we're staying here.
And everything is my fault according to him. If I point out how he's
being irrational, I'm standing in his way. I'm the source of all his
problems. I'm the bad guy if I don't jump at every crazy plan he
comes up with--and he comes up with a new one just about every week.
Do you know how many job changes and moves I've supported him in? I
don't know; I've actually lost count. But there are times when he's
just not making any sense and I *have* to say no, right? He's got me
so confused I don't know what's right and wrong, what's reasonable or
crazy anymore. I wish we had some neutral person we could talk this
all out with.
I really wish he was in therapy. Do you think there's any way I
could convince him to get back in therapy?
All I know is that I can't take this anymore.
Thanks for listening. I know I've been rambling, but I'm too upset
and stressed-out to make much sense at the moment. I think I need to
get away for a while.
Peace,
Sufia