Hi, I have been looking to people to talk to - and found your
board....my partner lives with mpd, and I am trying to get my
feelings in order to keep feelings separate. Although I have been
dealing with it for quite a while...one of the personalities...named
Jeff...has just come to terms with his feelings for me...and I feel
guilty..for having separate relations with him. I have talked to my
partner about it, and she is comfortable with sharing me...but I am
not. Jeff has a history of violence and anger...and in a way I am
afraid to cut ties because of this...but in another way I feel
curious about him, and want to get to know more about his feelings
and thought process. I am feeling very frustrated with myself...my
partner knows she should probably talk to someone about it...but she
does not want to be put on medication (she has had history with that
and hospitalization as a teenager). Is there anyone else who has felt
the way I have...if so, how have you deal with it?
I talked in a chatroom earlier, and they told me I should not
encourage it...but I dont know how to cut ties off with Jeff...he is
still a part of her. I don't want to push any part of her away.
I am sorry for the long letter. Would love to get feedback from
others. Thanks.