I know how you feel.  When my daughter died in 2002 it bought all the pain and
anger to the surface again, from when I lost my son in 1970.  It has been my
experience that the pain never goes away, you have to learn to live with it 
Holidays and the birthday's are the worse to get through.  I wanted to push
everyone away, which it sounds like you are doing.  I am still having trouble
with that myself.  There are movies and news stories that bring flashbacks to
me, I find myself lashing out to people because of the anger I feel because of
their death.  Right now I am in therepy but I know I have a long road to travel
in my healing. I wish the best for you,  Love and hugs,  Cheryl

--- On Sat, 1/24/09, nanna571022916 <nannabah@...> wrote:

From: nanna571022916 <nannabah@...>
Subject: [Mourning Loss of a Child] LOST
To: mourninglossofachild@yahoogroups.com
Date: Saturday, January 24, 2009, 4:54 AM






I feel so sick physically, mentally, emotionally. My daughter passed
April 3, 2005. She was 12 years old. After all this time I am finally
going to get some help. My marriage, my family is a mess because of how
I am. My husband told me he hates me. IT seems like with this grief
thing we get better for just a second and then it hits us again.I have
no one to talk to. I need a hug right now. This all sucks!!!!!!!


















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