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?SUNDAY: The First Year











good morning thank you so first for here, I was thinking at this computer I
should I need to email more BUT I am old in age and in grief so I don't my name
is Margaret pelleriti I was so "Normal" married 24 years had two? children etc
etc My son Michael was 16 my daughter marlo 13. In 1993 my son committed
suicide. and in reference to the question, I really truly did not think I would
survive that first year ha not the first? month or week, but here is sit now 14
years some days and hours later, I find to be so true here? though what I read
about survival? words form argia and pat and so many? so many others that maybe
and in reality family is not there BUT truth be told we are the ones that still
are, After my son committed suicide my only thought was my daughter and? my
husband(we are divorced now) she was 13 and?? was so close to her? brother she
recently told me how angry she is? at him for what he did, I know after it was
coming up to Christmas? and I charged and charged because? i did not think I
would survive this and? would not? have to? worry about paying it back, people
were there for a few weeks, but then, s l o w l y, I had to learn to rely and
depend on me, that first year is a blur, I don't? know how I got my clothes now,
this past year well my mom has past away and I do miss her, so I just
graduated?? with my? Masters, and am dating But what does not change is? today
when wake up I know and ache? that my son is gone I miss him so? very much my
love for him? has never changed, I try so? hard to not let the small stuff get
to me, because I have? lost the biggest that? I ever will have to. I do know or
remember that each day every day that first year I cried and cried

?thank you for? here thank you so Margaret mother to Michael and marlo? always















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