knowing me I will say this all wrong but here it goes anyway. I
honestly know exactly how you are feeling and 'm sure others would
agree that the feelings you are having right now are perfectly
normal. I went through such a long time when I well there's no other
way of putting it...I hated God for putting me through everything I
had went through with my daughter...then after all of that, to take
her away from me seemed so cruel. I'll be honest, it took many years
to come to a sort of understanding with God. --, I'm not one to sugar
coat things, it has been a constant struggle, but as much as you
don't want to hear it right now, I can promise you one thing, it will
slowly (very slowly) get better. It's something you just have to
take one day at a time, if you feel like crying, cry, if you feel
like screaming hey go ahead and scream. If you feel like hittin
something (hey I sure did) just make sure its a pillow or something
soft your hands will thank you in the morning.

mourninglossofachild@yahoogroups.com, SHAMONT HAMER <s.hamer@s...>
wrote:
> First off, I lost my daughter, Sarah, on Thursday, February 19,
2004 at 10:25 p.m. and I seem to still be stuck in that moment.
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> I do not know how to start, I have so many feelings and emotions
that are inside of me and I do not know how to express myself. The
people the I have come in contact with have been supportive but at
the same time seem to want me to be fine and ok with what has
happened and I am not.
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> They tell me that I have been through it and God will help you, but
you have to trust Him and believe that He will help. How do you
trust and believe when, in the past you did and what you thought
would happen didn't.
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> I know who God is and He has been in my life for many years, but
right now I am in this moment, I don't want to think about the good
things that He has done, or the blessings that are in my life. Right
now I am focused on the baby that He chose to take from me and to
understand how I can continue to love, trust and believe that He will
do what is best, even though He does, that is just not what I want to
think about right now.
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> I am hurt and frustrated and I don't know who to turn to, my
husband is wonderful and is there whenever I need him, but I still
feel alone and lost and I don't know what to do.
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> Don't Believe everything you think!!! (bumper sticker)
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> Shamont C.Hamer
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