First off, I lost my daughter, Sarah, on Thursday, February 19, 2004 at 10:25
p.m. and I seem to still be stuck in that moment.

I do not know how to start, I have so many feelings and emotions that are inside
of me and I do not know how to express myself. The people the I have come in
contact with have been supportive but at the same time seem to want me to be
fine and ok with what has happened and I am not.

They tell me that I have been through it and God will help you, but you have to
trust Him and believe that He will help. How do you trust and believe when, in
the past you did and what you thought would happen didn't.

I know who God is and He has been in my life for many years, but right now I am
in this moment, I don't want to think about the good things that He has done, or
the blessings that are in my life. Right now I am focused on the baby that He
chose to take from me and to understand how I can continue to love, trust and
believe that He will do what is best, even though He does, that is just not what
I want to think about right now.

I am hurt and frustrated and I don't know who to turn to, my husband is
wonderful and is there whenever I need him, but I still feel alone and lost and
I don't know what to do.




Don't Believe everything you think!!! (bumper sticker)

Shamont C.Hamer








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