It's 3:45 on a Wednesday mornin. I am awake with a headache. Monday afernoon, I
got a call from the Surgeon's Surgical Center prepping me for my surgery on the
18th. She went so fast that her voice is still realing in my ears and in my
brain. It is driving my crazy. I'm scared. I think some of the fear is coming
from driving home yesterday from my psychiatrist and psychologist appt. watching
all these idiot drivers going around us hoping one of them doesn't slam into us.
I thank God Rich is an outstanding driver. To make matters worse, my ankles are
starting to hurt. I've gained seven pounds over the summer. I am feeling very
much alone and have been since that "call". The idea of the those needles going
into my hands just before the surgery gives me the shivers down my spine just
thinkin' about it. I need a hug real bad. Well, I am suppose to go out with my
twin this morning around 9. I hope she can make me feel better. She is always a
bundle of laughs. Here's to a
pain free day to all my support buddies. Peace too all. Martha





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