Dear Alaa:

I empathize with your sad and alienated state. The first thing you need to know
is that we cannot 'do it for you' - recovering from your situation will take a
lot of work on your part.

That said, I can suggest some things that will help you. The best would be to
seek some professional counseling from a therapist, a social-worker or a leader
of your faith. The positive human contact, and building of trust with another
human being will help you 'keep it together' while you make some changes.

The second would be to start a gratitude journal. Look for something to feel
grateful for, every day, and write it down. Then, when you are feeling low, go
back and read about all the things you have in your life to be grateful for.
These can be as simple as a kind look from another person, sunshine, or a good
meal.

The third would be to use EFT to clear 'reversals.' It sounds to me (& it's
hard to tell for sure over e-mail) that your energy system is 'in reversal,'
which would explain the slow Reiki & the depression.

What I have found personally effective are a couple of techniques in a book by
Donna Eden, called "Energy Medicine." This can be found in a library ... or
even by visiting & looking at a copy in a bookstore.

One exercise involves sitting in a chair, crossing your right ankle over your
left, your left arm over your right, interlocking your fingers & pulling your
clasped hands up through the loop of your arms, resting on your chest, then
meditating on peace and harmony for 5 minutes. (Hard to describe physical
actions in words - better with a picture). This restores the left-right balance
of energies.

Another is called the 'cross-crawl', which involves marching in place - raise
the left leg up high and swing the right arm up at the same time until it is
straight out front from the shoulder, then do the same with the right leg/left
arm over & over for 3 mintues. That also re-harmonizes energies in the brain.

All of Gary's exercies for ending reversals on www.emofree.com are also good.
That is a site where you can learn to do EFT tapping, which is one of the major
'energy modalities' used by the healers on this list. If you follow a couple of
the tapping protocols listed in the 'depression' section, and tap faithfully 5
times every day through the depression protocal sequences, you should begin to
feel better.

What you will need to do is to start becoming aware of the negative messages you
are sending yourself, and tap on them. I'd also suggest tapping on the
following sequence of statements. I didn't write 'I deeply and completely
accept myself' after all of them, however that is my intent. Add that
affirmation to all of the sequences.

Even though my parents treated me cruelly, I deeply and completely accept
myself,
Even though I hated my father.../
Even though my family is all dead...
Even though my family ruined my life...
Even though I hate myself, I deeply and completely accept myself - (and then pay
attention to the thoughts that arise after this one, and tap on THEM, too.)
Even though I am depressed...
Even though I have no motivation for the future...
Even though my body is betraying me...
Even though I am mentally ill....
Even though I can't relate to other people...
Even though I have terrible luck...
Even though my finances are awful...
Even though I draw bad things to me...
Even though I am filled with grief I cannot express...
Even though I am unable to cry out my sorrow...

This will likely bring you relief.

Blessings,

Karen Engelsen

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>Dear Sir
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>***I have some psychological problems that I think weaken the reiki
>flow in my body and through my hands.
>From the first days of my life,my parents was treating me so badly
>and so cruelly.So I hated them especially my father who was so bad
>and so cruel to me.These negative impressions and emotions are so
>deep in my psyche and are destroying my whole life.My relationship
>with my parents and the whole family is dead for nearly 10 years
>ago.My self-esteem is null.I am depressed ,have no motivation for
>life and achievement and have a bad look for the future.
>My body and mental health are always going down.
>My relations with other people are not good.I think that all the bad
>luck in the world is my share in this life:Bad parents,bad luck ,bad
>relations,bad health,bad psyche,bad thoughts,bad financial matters.I
>think that all bad things is chasing me all the time.
>In the current moment of writing this letter,I have no money,no
>job,no bank account and no visa card.
>My whole life is not a happy one and not the one that should be
>lived.
>All these bad memories ,bad luck and bad situations are deeply
>inside my psyche,I do not know how to wipe them off.All these
>suppressed memories are killing me.
>The most obvious thing of me that I can not cry whatever happened to
>me,although I am a highly sensitive man and this is another big
>problem.The only times I cried are countable on fingers.
>I tried many things to get rid of these memories,but nothing
>happened and they are still there in their hidden places of my
>psyche destroying me and my life.
>***So I would like you to help me in the bad situation that i am in
>now.
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>Thanks a lot.
>Yours,
>Alaa
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