Hmmmm........ i hate introductions.

Anyway - I'm 19 and suffered disordered eating and body image issues
since i was 12. Started dieting at 15; nothing serious or so i
thought - gradually started and then pretty much was dragged into
the doctors by my mother and was "bullied" to gain weight - got fat -
at my highest i was 187 (which was late 2001). 2002 came and so did
my anorexic tendancies, Gradually worked my way down to 103 at 5'11,
which was my lowest last November, then basically got seriously ill
due to complications and was hospitalised for 2 months in an ED
clinic till January 15th this year, came out at 121 - feeling fatter
than ever and hating myself more. Since Feb this year ive been in
the outpatients program and ive bascially been maintaining 114 for 2
months now - hmmm.......... dont really think i ever wanna get
better - that goal of 88 - which i suppose is crazy - but i dont
really care anymore.

Anyway thats me - deal with it.