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e.dsa.2007@...: Mon, 9 Feb 2009 03:19:47 -0700Subject:
[eatingdisorderssupportforall] Pollack "Polly" Ann Williams






Yesterday, 2/8/2009, was the 1st year anniversary of Pallack "Polly" Ann
Williams' death (1974-2008) from Eating Disorders (ED's aka:e/d or Ed). She
appeared in the HBO documentary, "THIN." Shame on The Renfrew Centers! I
respectfully ask people to please light a candle(s) in her memory, in the memory
of others who have lost their battle with this demon. Also, I respectfully ask
you to light a candle(s) to encourage and support people (both sexes and all
ages) who are suffering with this life-threatening disease. There is recovery! I
know as I am speaking from my own personal experience. I have been there, so I
really do care and, I honestly do understand.Eating Disorders do Kill and no one
has to look sick/emaciated to get treatment at a residential treatment center!!!
Please do NOT allow this disease to end your life as it did Polly's.
Reach out and will always be there to help pull you up.
We do have a toll-free telephone number which is safe and always confidential.
If you need to talk or just to be heard, please call. No one is ever a bother or
a burden! This is something you can do that is a lot better and healthier
whenever something in life triggers you. We know that people have feelings, so
we try very hard to keep what we type or say in mind. Unfortunately, we both
know and understand that another person can't "save" another. They can only
provide support, care, love, and help you get the professional help you need and
deserve. But, in the end it's all up to you.

No one is alone unless they want to be! I can remember what is was like living
with my eating disorders and what lies the voices would tell me. The work was
hard, but it was worth it and I would have done it again only I would have go to
a treatment center much sooner. I lost teeth due to the purging and I wear an
upper denture. I hate it! I do not have the money to pay for implants. My teeth
would just break off (never completely only in half) eating a piece of soft
bread. I always had to have an oral surgeon remove the rest of the tooth or
teeth that broke off and the root. I had one dentist I will never forget who
said this comment to me after he was done, "Erika, you were such a pretty young
woman before I had to remove that tooth/teeth. Now, you made me make you ugly
because off missing teeth!" I will never ever forget the name of that dentist or
that day. In January, I turned 34 years old. No one "controls" their eating
disorder, it controls you! The wonderful news is that you can stop it! I want
people to feel safe and welcome here. I am not a know-it-all and I never said I
was. I believe we learn something new everyday. Both my mother and I are doing
our best to block people who Spam at this group. We both have removed people,
but as you know this group is Public and all they have to do is change their
screen names. We have explained why we really do not want to have to make this
group Private. We want a user friendly web site to be built for this group. If
anyone knows how to build web sites and are interested for the good of this
group and cause, please let us know. I am a very easy person to speak with via
telephone. I am a night person and I know that people suffering with eating
disorders often times have problems sleeping. I am serious about my offer to
meet you or a loved one if you are in a treatment center within the S., CA area.
This disease is a demon and sadly it affects everyone in your life, i.e.,
children, friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, wives, life-partners, etc.
We are here/hear for them too. "Children learn with that live." I say prayers
for those who are suffering and for God to help lead me down His path and to
help give me guidance to help you. Everything I type and/or say is the truth.
Even about my own life no matter how painful. How can you trust someone who will
not tell you the truth about what happened in their live? I learned in intense
therapy during therapy for sexual trauma (just one of the classes I attended) at
the place I went to when I was 19 years old (1994) that it was never my fault
what happened to me throughout my childhood, i.e., Childhood Sexual Abuse (CSA).
That was my root problem and then add life-stressors. Once it was time for me to
go home I was so scared because I was in a "safe, stress-free, and, healthy
living environment" and I had to go out into the "real world of life" without
my therapists, social worker, and other people whom I met. I was also so scared
to go Inpt.. because I felt like no one was going to really understand how I was
feeling, what I was thinking, and I was also scared to face the eating disorder
which met I had to get to the reason why I had this disease. Furthermore, I felt
that no one else who was a client or pt. there would understand me and I thought
they would hate me, make fun of me, judge me. You know what? These clients or
pts.. felt the same way I was feeling. When I didn't eat or when I would eat
(very little) I would make myself throw it up and/or over exercise. It feels
good, right? I remember the euphoric feeling (the high) you get after you throw
up, take laxatives and do other stuff to purge. I did not feel like I was worth
food or living. Everyone needs and deserves food in order to life. We would like
to do a Chat session at least once a week Online. It would only last an hour
max. Now, if we were Chatting about something that is really interests you it
can go longer. We could decide on a topic you want to Chat about or we could
just start Chatting. You can use an alias if you want. We want you to Add
photos, poems, music, art-work, etc., anything you want. The only rule is that
it cannot be triggering. Now, of course, that is different in everyone's mind.
We thank you for taking the time out of your busy lives to read this. I
apologize that my messages/posts are long and that's because when I feel really
serious about something I just open up my heart and soul.

Godspeed!

Pollack "Polly" Ann Williams
1974-2008

With Understanding and Support Always,

Erika Stewart, Founder, Eating Disorders Support for All (EDSA) at Yahoo! Groups
e.dsa.2007@...

freedomisntfree2003@...

&

Lynda Lutz, RN, and Co-Founder, Eating Disorders Support for All (EDSA) at
Yahoo! Groups
e.dsa.2007@...

FenderstratG1968@...

"Believe!" - Pollack "Polly" Ann Williams,

"Slowly I realized I would never forgive myself if I do not at least try." -
Mikael Barishnikov,

"You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt,

"Just do it!" - Nike,

"Music is a universal language for life." - Erika Stewart



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