Thats so sad. I feel the exact same way. Just a fat failure. Im not good enough
for anyone or anything. I kinda wish my parents cared as much as yours do tho. I
dont want help tho! im happy with the anorexia. i Want it. I want bulimia. I
want to be skinny and happy. Maybe then People will notice me! "The weight of
death is the only weight I want to be." I Like that! Ugh i cant weight to go
away to college and be on my own one day. No food. No fat. Ill be so happy.
Take care everyone.
Dane.

Bulimic Jockey <maxburgi_81@...> wrote:

My name is Sara & my youngest son, Max (24) has Bulimia & Anorexia. This is his
e-mail address & he left this for me to read (honestly)!! It seems that he
wants recovery, but doesn't at the same time also. He's been struggling for 7
years & nothing seems to have worked. Recently he got down to 113 lbs. at 5' 9"
& his older brother didn't tell me, but forced him to eat until he gained to 118
lbs. (current)! He is an amateur horse jockey & the profession keeps telling
him to stay low or lose. I've gotten the support from the trainers & track
physicians, but nobody has gotten through to him yet that he's dying!

Of course, he might not care about dying b/c I went to his public online journal
& it had this for today's entry:
Haven't been here in sooo long!!
Dang I'm so fat & disgusting!! I have to lose more weight. I was down to 113
lbs. (finally), but was so fucking out of it that my brother had me eating w/o
realizing it!! I have to move away & live on my own so I can get down farther
w/o anyone ruining it for me!!!!!! Now I'm up to 118 lbs.(sticks fingers down
throat, once again)! I need to lose 10 lbs. to be closer to my ultimate goal!
Why do guys have to be heavier than girls anyways?? My weight should be 60 lbs.!
The weight of death is the only weight I want to be.

My mom is going bananas trying to find a "superb rehabiliton center" for her
lovely Eating "Disordered" son!!!!!!!!!!!! Why can't she just fuck the hell off
of me & go worry about someone else who gives a damn about their life!! I didn't
ask to be born! You & dad fucked & ended up with an ugly, fat, retarded, deaf
son who wants to
DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\
!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET ME DIE YOU FUCKED UP PEOPLE! I DON'T WANT TO LIVE SO LET ME DIE!!

Bulimic Jockey (or as I'm now considered: Anorexic Jockey)

I am terrified that he will die very soon! I mean, he wants to weigh 60 POUNDS
at 5' 9"!!!!!! Where did my husband & I go wrong?? Maybe getting our children
involved in the racing circuit was the worst idea ever? I thought I was safe
b/c I had two boys. I can't believe I could believe that it wouldn't happen to
MY children!! Why am I anything special? I'm like every red blooded American.
I should have expected this & prevented it before it started!! I just want to
know how to help him realize that he is worth so much to everyone that knows him
& we all care so much about him! Can you give any resources for us (Max,
myself, & our family)? I don't want to bury my son. It shouldn't be that way!

I'm saving this to his e-mail b/c I don't want any secrets. This is for you
Max:

Max, I love you & don't want you to suffer from this DISORDER any longer.
Please, please, let us help you & move forward into the path of RECOVERY (not
"recovery")! You need to fight this DISEASE so it won't control you any longer
& so you aren't destroyed by it!!

freedomisntfree2003 <freedomisntfree2003@...> wrote:
Hi everyone!

I am here if you, your child (minor or adult), and/or a friend is
suffering with an eating disorder(s) and would like to chat. I am
going for my CEDS (Certification in Eating Disorders Specialist
Degree). I can tell you that if you have an eating disorder and
suffering with chronic pain you are going to find one hell of a time
seeking inapt. treatment because these treatment centers are stupid
about chronic pain, narcotic pain medication(s), addiction,
habituation, tolerance, and dependence. However, I do know of only 3
treatment centers that do not have any problems when it comes to
chronic pain and/or narcotic pain medication(s) for pain management.
If anyone is interested in these 3 treatment centers please contact
me via PM and/or e-mail.
Also, remember that males also suffer from eating disorder too.
If you have any questions, comments, and/or concerns, please feel
free to contact me anytime.
I thank you for your time and please take care of yourselves.


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