I've always wondered, not that i would have the balls to do it, but i
wondered if the sctioning off of the stomach, into a small size, would
help me stop the binging... what do you think...
As as sacrry not i was just reading about this former child star in
england who many years ago had some bizzare form of brain surgery to
fix her illness, she unfortunatly died because of it..she had
popularized the song"ma, he's making eyes at me" kinda ominoulsy
weirdly tradjic.
*** i think it is all for more in having to do with our brains that can
be cured via the body....
I was sondering if anyone had been to the Iowa program that i think
specifically tagets males withs eds? tell us about it..we all, i
think, are so afraid of going to a mixed gender support group or esp
treatment center, and sticking out or being looked at sideways..would
be nice to have just one less obstacle to overcome, just one.
im 35 now, i started this bs just before i was 12...Im near or at
normal weight, but christ, i have only moderate control of my bowels
after all these years, i have actual holes and cavities and stumps as
teeth, if i do keep down a meal im sick, and may struggle not to vomit
unwillingly, I have to sleep sitting up at an angle, like the elephant
man had too, but for me it's not breathing, it's that i have reflux
disorder and if i have anything in my greedy gut, or even liquids at
night i have prblems not leaking stomach acid or vomit if i have had a
bite too recently before bed, i've been caught shoplifting food,
writing bad checks to pay for it, an dizzy all the friggin time, weak,
and if i dont force myself to get going i could be collasped in bed all
day my career , my personal life, finaces, my all important loft condo
smells like acid and more acid and puke and yet it's all so important
to be lean and perty and all GQ and shit, when i feel like shit all the
shittin time.
Oh ok uh hi, just a little rant, maybe a little scare to get your
recovery moving b4 ya fuc up as bad as me...please im not attacking
you, but don't celebrate the disease and its mentality by posting
pictures of your skinny ass and thinking it's all so glam, all so, just
so trippin, so edgy, whatever... it makes me sick, really
Get better all of you, i dont know ya but i do..im not giving up on me
or you either.....................get fit , not disordered.

my karmatic good wishes go out to everyone ...Dan