Oh ook maybe then it wasnt you Jared, but I saw a real life /mtv
episode with a young guy who had an eating disorder. So YOU are
trying to get on the show, and that other show was not you? Maybe
then it is bc they already dealt with the topic, and included a male
perspective on the comprehensive episode...?

--- In menseatingdisorders@yahoogroups.com, "danolxa" <danolxa@y...>
wrote:
>
> Jared I saw the real life episode... I hope that you are going to
> continue to seek help, even though you still are pre-occupied with
> losing weight. I had never seen another male's story on tv, and
> have met maybe two other guys several years ago when i was in
> treatment. Find solace and comfort regarding your problem with
other
> women, it's not a gender thing, more of a self-esteem/ self-
> punishing disorder...remember, dont give up, you are not the only
> one....
>
>
> --- In menseatingdisorders@yahoogroups.com, J-Rad
> <jareda_kennedy@y...> wrote:
> > To Who ever this reaches:
> > Hey. My name is Jared. I am a 23 year old man from Minnesota.
I
> have been battling anorexia and bulimia since I was 15, but have
> only recently, within the last year, decided to get outside help
for
> it. Before I was getting help, I was constantly worried about
what
> I was eating. I would throw up anything from a cough drop to a
bag
> of Oreos and a jar of peanut butter.
> > I was reserved about getting help, as I didn't think that other
> men suffered from that. I was worried that I would only add to
the
> gay stereotype of the dire need to be feminine. As many
> factors/experiences go into eating disorders, I know being gay was
> one of them---I wanted my boyfriend to be more proud of me...I
> wanted my friends to be jealous...I wanted to be thin no matter
the
> cost. When I could, I would avoid eating altogether, but when it
> was nearly impossible, I would binge and purge, in a sense.
> > I guess I realized I had a problem when I was on the phone with
a
> friend telling her about my E.D. and she came over to help me
> eat...I am still embarrassed that it got that far...but the past
is
> the past. I had a panic attack after eating a tablespoon of rice
> with gravy, after which she offered me an ultimatum--either I get
> help or she would get help for me. That was how I got into
> outpatient therapy, as the area I am in doesn't have a specific
> inpatient program.
> > My outpatient therapy consisted of seeing a dentist, a doctor, a
> dietitian, and a psychologist once a month. Although I have yet
to
> see a dentist, I went through about 3 months if therapy--which
> consisted of extremely close measuring of my weight, mental state,
> blood levels, checking for organ damage....the list goes on.
> > At my heaviest, I was 230 pounds, and at my lowest weight, I was
> at 165. I am now at what my friends and Doctors consider
> a "healthy" 185lbs, but I will always desire to be thin. Since
> leaving my treatment program ( due to the fact that I am a broke
> ass), I have eliminated meat from my diet, eating only soy meat (
> which is completely fat free).
> > A lot of problems arise from being anorexic/bulimic---the one
bad
> thing I went through was in my hometown at a school reunion, I
> hadn't eaten all day then went out all night. At 2:30 in the
> morning my friends drove me to the ER after I had been
involuntarily
> puking for 2 hours and was unresponsive. I was pumped with IV
fluid
> and obviously didn't need to pump my stomach, but that gave my
> friends, family, and I quite a wake up call.
> > I will get thinner, and hopefully won't have to regress to my
> earlier methods, but dire situations call for extreme methods...I
> can't say I won't do it again, and I don't know if I want this to
be
> over yet. All I know is that this ED scared a lot of people
around
> me...including myself.
> > All I ask of you guys at MTV is even if you don't decide that my
> story is interesting enough, PLEASE put on the show that this is a
> problem faced by both genders...I think that will help other men
out
> there to realize that there is help out there---if they want it.
> > Thanks for listening--
> > (Say hi to Justin Timberlake for me !!! :) )
> > Jared Kennedy
> > 2521 Minnesota Ave NW #1
> > Bemidji MN 56601
> > 218-209-1933 cell
> > 218-444-8468 home
> >
> >
> >
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