meno madness i know how you feel

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June

Dodie <michaelisdh@...> wrote:

--- In menopausal@yahoogroups.com, "mbssue" <monrad@s...> wrote:
> I want to end it. (not really...but that's how I feel)
> Crying all the time.
> any suggestions?
Hi, mbssue, I also have those feelings nearly everyday now. I've been
without a period for, off and on, 6 to 8 months at a time for the
last three years. I don't know when I will experience another or if I
will at all. The depression is sometimes overwhelming. I am
overweight and battling constantly to get outside and walk, or do
anything. Because of medical problems, my doctor won't prescribe
hormone therapy. I am either allergic to everything, or my immune
system goes haywire. I can't take chemicals or drugs. So I've had to
study and learn natural remedies for the last 15 years under a
qualified naturopathic doctor. But, when it involves your brain; your
emotional health, that is tricky. He won't prescribe an
antidepressant either, so I'm left on my own...so far a few things
have been helpful. Bear in mind, there is no magic potion for this
thing called menopause.
I feel dead inside and no longer enjoy any of the things I used to
love, like writing, crafts, creating recipes, things like that. I
have some physical disabilities so I can't do any strenuous
activities, but walking and light exercise like dancing I can do. I
live in the country away from people and have no friends. My grown
children live in other cities far away. I feel so lonely and
abandoned most of the time. At times the feeling to end it is so
strong, but I always talk myself out of it, and know you have to
divert your attention when that happens to other things, like just
picking up a book and starting to read it. Or throw myself into
housework and put some music on, and force myself to dance around
while I work, But don't get me wrong, sometimes it doesn't work, I'm
just too depressed and resign myself to my room and cry for most of
the day.
Maybe I've said too much, but I think we need to talk to each other
and have a good solid support system with people who really care
about each other, even thru groups like these. Hope I hear from you
soon. I'm online right now, it's 12:35 pm but I don't have yahoo
messenger downloaded yet, only msn messenger, but if you would like
to chat on messenger I could download it or thru email is fine too.
Take care, Dodie. P.S. I'm heading out the door just now to take a
short walk to check my mailbox at the end of the lane, I'll be back
in about 15 minutes.  I'll be hoping to find an email from you!!!

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