Hi, there-Just want you to know that I have been hit
with many, many crying spells as I've begun to grow
through periomenopause. The change of life coming to
me hit me like a ton of bricks. It was a crisis, in
fact, that my ex-husband decided he couldn't see me
through. He bailed out of marriage when I was in the
middle of it, trying my best to help myself deal with
everything that was going on: grief over the only
child I ever gave birth to, a son whom I lost earlier
in life, grief over not being a mother. Then, when he
left, I had to grieve him. He left me in a precarious
financial situation, which has led to a lot of grief.
Then, a subsequent significant other bailed out
because I didn't have enough money to suit him.

As I write this, I say to myself, "My gosh, lady, you
made it through all this, and you're still standing?!"
..by the grace of God is the only way it happened.

I've relocated now myself, have full-time work (though
it doesn't pay what I'd like,) am in school to learn a
new profession, and have now met someone in whom I'm
extremely interested who has a 6-year old daughter. I
can envision that this relationship will blossom into
something very special for all of us.

I went on anti-depressants for awhile, Lexapro, to be
exact, which have done wonders. I was on another one
during the worst part of all this, but I don't need it
anymore. See if your doctor will prescribe this for
you. It will help a great deal.

You are not alone in this, friend. Write whenever
you'd like. I, for one, will be glad to communicate
with you about what we're going through.
Sincerely,
Margaret
--- lsgns1955 <lsgns1955@...> wrote:
> Hello everyone, this is my first time to post. I'm
> new to the
> group. It's hard trying to find others to talk to
> because I don't
> like sounding like a broken record and I hate to
> complain to family
> and friends. Seems like the biggest problems I'm
> having is crying
> almost all the time and having morbid thoughts. I'm
> not one that is
> afraid of dying, but lately I'm terrified I won't
> have all
> the "things" done that I want to do finished before
> I die. Also, the
> thought of dying and leaving my family is driving me
> crazy. Does
> anyone else have thoughts of dying? I know what
> alot of you are
> thinking.... doesn't she believe in God, etc. Yes,
> I surely do. I
> know that I'll be going to heaven and be with other
> family members.
> It's hard to explain just what it is that scares me
> so badly. As
> much as I don't wish these horrid thoughts on anyone
> else...I do hope
> I'm not the only one. Hope you can help.
>
>
>


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