Hello group,

My name's Sean.

It was about three or four years ago,after a 7 year relationship crashed
and burned,I started reading about self-realization.The book was by Guy
Finley,still one of my favorites,and it set me off.I never really looked
back.I've had my ups and downs,like everyone,but I've read about 20
books and try to stay conscious as much as possible,BUT,for the life of
me,I still CANNOT acheive meditation.

And I try OFTEN.

Don't get me wrong,even 5 minutes of semi-silence is beneficial to
me,but,I mean,real meditation.

I recently got this program that just plays a constant tone,that worked
great at first,but the effects have died down.Every session I pretty
much start off ready to go,using whatever method I am
trying(mantra,breathing.....),then slowly I will lose control of my
thoughts,at which time it's like rounding up cattle,then,eventually fall
asleep.Of course if I choose a postion that inhibits sleeping,it always
comes with an itch or a bothersome pressure point.

I guess there are many techniques that I haven't been patient enough
with or having been properly taught,

so I joined....

Thanks for reading!