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Hi, my name is Anthony and ive been bak and forth between Anorexia
and Some Bulimia. I am now 15 and my Eating disorder probably started
when i was about 12. The doctor told me i was about 12 lbs overweight
when i was like 11. My brothers used to call me fat. I have a twin
brother and brother who is  2 yrs younger than me. Me and my twin
look nothing alike. I guess i was a little chubby but i never really
thought much about it until people started pointing it out. Then i
just became really scared of being fat and i wanted to lose weight.
I didnt really know how to lose weight so i asked my mom and my mom
told me that i wasnt fat but if i wanted to lose a few lbs to ride my
bike a little more. Whatever i didnt really do that. I really didnt
do ne thing at all. I had seen some movies on eating disorders like
the one called ." perfect body" and it was about a girl who was in
gymnastics and struggled with anorexia and bulimia and stuff. I saw
that she purged alot and i thought it was cool because she could eat
and then take it right back. I tried it but i didnt really do it to
try and lose weight. i just did it a few times because it looked
cool. Then i just really wanted to lose weight so i tried doing it
after i ate but it was never dinner or lunch or breakfast. It was
always things i would eat on the side like pretzels and fat-free
pudding  etc...Its hard for me to remember back to when i really
started to purge. All i know is that i did it but usually just around
friends because i guess i wanted them to see that i was doing
something to try and lose the weight. Anyways... some of my friends
were concerned because they knew it couldnt be good for a person to
be eating things and then to be forcing themselves to throw it right
back up. I never binged on anything but i just purged what i did eat
on the side. Some of my friends went to the guidance counselor and
then he talked to me and told me that it didnt seem that i was really
deep into the eating disorder because i still looked healthy and
everything. He told me that he didnt want it to get to the point to
where he could tell that i had a problem. So he told the nurse and
the nurse told my mom. THen i told my mom it was just a phase and
that i would stop. I thought  i could stop i guess but i really
couldnt. I told my mom that i didnt feel comfortable eating normally
if i wasnt going to be able to purge it. So then thats when i decided
if i wasnt going to purge i was going to eat all Fat-Free foods. To
me then , fat = fat. So i didnt want to eat ne of it. But before i
knew it was eating the fat-free stuff but was purging it and wasnt
eating normally at all. I didnt normally eat breakfast, for lunch i
would eat some fat -free chicken tenders on fat- free bread. and for
dinner i never ate with my family. i would always come up with some
concoction of fat- free things to eat on my own time. I was also
doing 130 sit ups each night because i felt like if i excercised it
would help me to lose weight faster. At this point my family wasnt
really concerned about my weight at all because when they found out
my weight was normal. My weight really did stay pretty level. i may
have lost a few lbs here and there but not much at all. Every night i
would do my sit ups. I did feel somewhat that i had to do the sit ups
or my day wouldnt be complete. While i was doing my sit ups i would
usually watch Emeril on the Food Network Channel. I guess you could
say i was hungry and my body missed all the foods i wouldnt allow it
to have. One night i ate 2 fat - free waffles w fat free imitation
margerine with jelly and then went upstairs to the bathroom. I guess
my dad had a feeling i was going to throw it up. So he went outside
and went to the back of the yard where the bathroom window was. i was
on the 2nd floor so he had to go really far back to see what i was
actually doing. I forgot to shut the blinds so he saw me, came
upstairs and told me not to flush the toilet.... there was the
waffles and everything i ate right there in the toilet.... of course
i wasnt going to listen to him. I flushed. Then came out. I said that
i had gone poop...of course im going to flush dad. He told me he saw
what i did and i denied it. My mom told me i looked too skinny even
though i wasnt. REally i wasnt. This was during the end of summer. i
still continued what i had been doing for the whole summer. I was 13
now so my body alone was going through changes. i was getting taller
and more mature i guess. so physically i guess i did look like i had
lost some weight.  I remember weighing myself on my friends scale
and praying that mine would be lower than his. it always was. i was
smaller than him. i also started to run or jog a little. So i guess
that helped. By the time school started my mom wanted me to start
seeing a therapist. So we did. I didnt like her. It usually didnt
last more than 30 minutes if that.. She and the Doctor told me that i
needed to start putting fat into diet because i was a growing boy and
i needed fat to grow correctly. So the doctor told me that i should
be getting at least 20 grams of fat a day. I WAS LIKE HELL NO because
i was used to eating just 0 grams a day. My therapist understood that
it would be hard for me to eat so much fat while not used to it.  So
she wanted me to eat at least 5-8 grams of fat each day. I didnt want
ne. I guess i felt kinda forced to eat so i tried but i just couldnt
do it because i didnt want 2. So i  would eat lunch normally but i
would eat a dinner that had like 5-8 grams of fat. usually a healthy
choice or lean cuisine. But it made me feel too fat so i would go and
purge it. I kept doing this while my mom thought i was eating it and
doing better. While she thought his my weight was going down. I
started to eat very weird. I would be starving because i would purge
everything i ate and it wasnt much to start with. I would eat things
like cans of vegetables, bbq sauce plain, pretzals with mustard,
ketchup plain, sugar plain. not all at once but at different times. I
would feel guilty for eating some mustard or even water. I did feel
trapped but i also felt that i was no longer fat or overweight and my
weight was below normal. My weight went from 105 ( in the summer ) to
82 ( in december). For most of the time i maintained in the 90's or
so . But then my mom found out i was purging because she brought me
to the doctor and my weight was lower. i tried to convince her that
had diabetes and there was some other explanation for my weight loss.
I was definately in denial.  I thought if ne thing i had bulimia. i
didnt know the difference between anorexia and bulimia. All i knew is
i purged. I didnt want to gain weight. Friends commented on my weight
loss. Some negative comments and some positive. Friends mostly were
worried because i didnt eat much and i was  looking sick. Friends
said i was too skinny and that bones in my arms were showing where
not needed. Even if  it was a negative comment it motivated me to
keep going. I did start to feel weak and wasnt able to do much. I can
remember on thanksgiving i was unable to go to my cousins for dinner
because everytime i stood i was very light-headed and felt sick. This
scared me and i tried to eat... i wanted to  so i wouldnt get sick. I
didnt want to  feel light-headed and sick all the time. So i put a
fat-free waffle in the toaster and then put it to my mouth and i
coudlnt eat it. I felt very nauseous just putting it to my mouth. so
i threw it in the trash and went into the bathroom. Ran the bath
water and got in the warm water. If i layed down the sick feeling
wasnt as bad. but when i layed there , ( not kept ne thing in my
stomach for weeks.) starving literally but my appetite seemed gone. I
wanted to eat for health reasons but i couldnt . i wasnt hungry.
While laying in the bath i could see my ribs and hip bones and even a
pulse near my belly button. Never knew there was a pulse down there.
But there was. This had a two sided effect. I was scared because it
looked sickly. but then again it was my result of not eating. I wasnt
the 12 lb overweight 11 yr old that the doctor once saw. I was now 13
and 80 some lbs. From November to December  i only remember drinking
diet sodas, and my weird concoction of mustard or sauce, or veggies.
I threw up almost everything. I slept alot 2. Didnt hang out with
friends at all and just secluded myself. Then I went to the doctor
and i was still in the 80's with my weight so my mom knew she had to
do something. My blood work wasnt good either. I was slightly anemic
and my electrolytes were messed up. So then on December 18 2001 they
took me to Johns Hopkins in Baltimore Md where i was diagnosed with
anorexia w/ purging and i was weighed in at 82lbs. I cant remember
much about how i felt .  All i know is that i was scared to see these
people in this hospital just like living there. There were mostly
gurls and 2 boys. Some worse than others. Some better than others.
You know. So 2 months later i was discharged at a weight around 106
or so. I did ok for a little while and then i started purging again.
Then in January 29 2003 i was admitted again at 97 lbs but about 4-5
inches taller. My electrolytes messed up again i was put on  an IV
for a couple of days and also a heart monitor. i think they were
worried about my heart bc of the purging. Well i guess almost 2
months later i was discharged at a weight at about 116 or so. So now
im here in the summer of 2003 at about 116 and i guess 5'9 better i
guess but not recovered.

Thats my story ^
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We just talk about our experiences

Anthony Joseph Parker <awsomeant88@...> wrote:hi im a male anorexic. ive
been hospitalized twice in a little over a
yr. im doing pretty well now but i still struggle.ive never really
met or talked to many male anorexics. if someone can email me or
something to let me know what this group it for and what u all talk
ab in it that would be great.

email me at awsomeant88@... if u can...

thanks alot

Anthony Parker


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No, you are not alone!

pstands <no_reply@yahoogroups.com> wrote:Hey guys,
    I'm new to the list, and its great to know I'm not the only gay
anorexic out there. I'm 6'0", 151lbs, been w/ ana for about two years
now, and the occasional mia "episode".


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i would like to talk to some of you but email i dont like too
much. i will write bak if asked but i just like talking on Instant
Message much better. so if ne one wants my screen names here they are.


aol- awsomeant88
aim- aeguy61388


ant-

Hey guys,
    I'm new to the list, and its great to know I'm not the only gay
anorexic out there. I'm 6'0", 151lbs, been w/ ana for about two years
now, and the occasional mia "episode".

hi im a male anorexic. ive been hospitalized twice in a little over a
yr. im doing pretty well now but i still struggle.ive never really
met or talked to many male anorexics. if someone can email me or
something to let me know what this group it for and what u all talk
ab in it that would be great.

email me at awsomeant88@... if u can...

thanks alot

Anthony Parker

you asnd I are in the same boat!

virusag13 <virusag13@...> wrote:I am in the same place right now. I am
trying to gain weight, and
slowly I can no longer see my ribs, hips and cheek/jaw. People
really notice. It is nice, but I need to continue to work on my
depression and use of alcohol and others chemicals as an escape. I
just found this site, so I am pretty happy I found a site with men
on the boards. I have been posting at another site of predomanintly
women, and will continue, but other guys is better. Good luck Mau


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You can do it! Don't let ed's take over your life. You can do it!
maupardo <no_reply@yahoogroups.com> wrote:Thanks for being there.
I feel sorry but now I cannot deal with "normal", Iīm weak, I lost
some pounds this week doing terrible things.
Iīm not very proud of it, actually I feel miserable and my self-
esteem dropped some points from the score. I guess itīs my cushion
to cope with my current conflicts. (Next wednesday Iīll submit a
project, I will change to another job afterwards and my boss doesnīt
know yet, I feel old.....).
The other day a friend of mine which I hadnīt seen for a long while
said: You look good (inside my brain: "You look fat!"). That added
to my low self-esteem and to the present pressure Iīm under, invoked
back my old habits of self-destruction. Great!
The bottomline is that I had quited therapy, and herein the result,
I have to go on with my recovery. I just stumbled in the way, and
itīs easier to choose for the path of letting edīs taking over your
life, better than make an effort to be well.

Thanks for your heed

Mau





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Dear Bryan,
That is great that you lost that weight but I am scare that you are
leading your self down a dark road. My doctor was so happy when I
lost 100 lbs but he wasn't happy when I started to look like death
warm over. PLEASE be careful because you can get into that trap and
will not be able to get out. Need to talk e-mail me.
Take Care, Lenny





Dear Bryan--- In maleeatingdisorders@yahoogroups.com, "hinoki01"
<hinoki01@y...> wrote:
> I almost feel like I don't belong here. Maybe I do... maybe I
don't.
> I'll leave it for you, to decide.
>
> If I'm an anorexic, then I'm still in the early stages of it. I've
> dropped from 265 lbs down to 195. I've gone from a 42" waist, to a
> 34" waist that's a bit loose. Hell, my Doctor is having the time of
> her life. She loves the way my blood-pressure has fallen. She
adores
> the fact that my pulse is strong, and slow. Last time she took it,
> it was sub-60. She just doesn't know how I'm doing it.
>
> I bike about 20 miles a day, on a Schwinn Airdyne. Takes me about
an
> hour. You know the drill.. you toss on a movie, set the timer.. get
> up to a reasonable speed (60-65 rpm, for me) and bike until the
> timer beeps. I can't skip a day of biking, though. I've tried. I
can
> practically feel those 70 lbs coming back, even as I try and watch
a
> movie without biking.
>
> I don't eat well.. I'll admit that, up front. The diet started
> innocently enough. Somewhere along the line it.. changed. Became a
> lot stricter. This is what I don't understand, though. Somewhere
> along the line, the strictness intensified.. and became NORMAL. It
> became normal for me to eat once every other day. The meal would
> consist of a small 6" torpedo sub from 7-11 and a 20 oz. Mountain
> Dew. Occasionally at work I'd snag a handful of Wheat-thins, Gold-
> fish, or whatever fingerfood they'd have around. I'd drink gallons
> of coffee... I still do. Love the stuff. If I try and eat twice in
a
> day, I'm driven nuts, until I do another round on the bike. THEN
I'm
> alright with it. Mostly.  I'm uncomfortable with eating once a day.
> I can DO it.. I'm just not very happy about doing it.
>
> I rationalize it well, though. What is a diet, other than a
> situation where you burn more calories than you take in?
>
> This is getting a bit long, especially for a post from a first-
> timer. I'll let it end here for now, I guess. Take care, and be
> well, all. I'd not mind hearing your opinion about what I've said.
>
> Please, though.. don't think I'm just being a smeg-head. What I've
> said in here is true.
>
> Respectfully,
>
> Bryan H. Hall

Dear Maupardo,
I don't know you, but we have something in common I have a eating disorder that
I have to work on everyday, I do not allow my ED to take over my life anymore.
Because one time in my life it did. Yes I have fallen at times but I get up and
start all over again. The best thing for me to do was not listen to voices in my
head telling me that I was fat look like shit and all the stuff. I watch what I
eat and I try to do the best I can on a daily baices, but there are days that
are hard and I just keep on pushing. So I hope you will also if you ever need to
talk please e-mail me. I will answer you back.

Take Care, Lenny

maupardo <no_reply@yahoogroups.com> wrote:
Thanks for being there.
I feel sorry but now I cannot deal with "normal", Iīm weak, I lost
some pounds this week doing terrible things.
Iīm not very proud of it, actually I feel miserable and my self-
esteem dropped some points from the score. I guess itīs my cushion
to cope with my current conflicts. (Next wednesday Iīll submit a
project, I will change to another job afterwards and my boss doesnīt
know yet, I feel old.....).
The other day a friend of mine which I hadnīt seen for a long while
said: You look good (inside my brain: "You look fat!"). That added
to my low self-esteem and to the present pressure Iīm under, invoked
back my old habits of self-destruction. Great!
The bottomline is that I had quited therapy, and herein the result,
I have to go on with my recovery. I just stumbled in the way, and
itīs easier to choose for the path of letting edīs taking over your
life, better than make an effort to be well.

Thanks for your heed

Mau





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Thanks for being there.
I feel sorry but now I cannot deal with "normal", Iīm weak, I lost
some pounds this week doing terrible things.
Iīm not very proud of it, actually I feel miserable and my self-
esteem dropped some points from the score. I guess itīs my cushion
to cope with my current conflicts. (Next wednesday Iīll submit a
project, I will change to another job afterwards and my boss doesnīt
know yet, I feel old.....).
The other day a friend of mine which I hadnīt seen for a long while
said: You look good (inside my brain: "You look fat!"). That added
to my low self-esteem and to the present pressure Iīm under, invoked
back my old habits of self-destruction. Great!
The bottomline is that I had quited therapy, and herein the result,
I have to go on with my recovery. I just stumbled in the way, and
itīs easier to choose for the path of letting edīs taking over your
life, better than make an effort to be well.

Thanks for your heed

Mau

Dear Brian,

        I'm proud of you! I just don't know where to begin. You sound like you
used to be a big guy and I need mad help. I would like if you could tell me
more things i can do. I'm 240lbs and am stuck. HELP!!

Maurice


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I am in the same place right now. I am trying to gain weight, and
slowly I can no longer see my ribs, hips and cheek/jaw. People
really notice. It is nice, but I need to continue to work on my
depression and use of alcohol and others chemicals as an escape. I
just found this site, so I am pretty happy I found a site with men
on the boards. I have been posting at another site of predomanintly
women, and will continue, but other guys is better. Good luck Mau

I almost feel like I don't belong here. Maybe I do... maybe I don't.
I'll leave it for you, to decide.

If I'm an anorexic, then I'm still in the early stages of it. I've
dropped from 265 lbs down to 195. I've gone from a 42" waist, to a
34" waist that's a bit loose. Hell, my Doctor is having the time of
her life. She loves the way my blood-pressure has fallen. She adores
the fact that my pulse is strong, and slow. Last time she took it,
it was sub-60. She just doesn't know how I'm doing it.

I bike about 20 miles a day, on a Schwinn Airdyne. Takes me about an
hour. You know the drill.. you toss on a movie, set the timer.. get
up to a reasonable speed (60-65 rpm, for me) and bike until the
timer beeps. I can't skip a day of biking, though. I've tried. I can
practically feel those 70 lbs coming back, even as I try and watch a
movie without biking.

I don't eat well.. I'll admit that, up front. The diet started
innocently enough. Somewhere along the line it.. changed. Became a
lot stricter. This is what I don't understand, though. Somewhere
along the line, the strictness intensified.. and became NORMAL. It
became normal for me to eat once every other day. The meal would
consist of a small 6" torpedo sub from 7-11 and a 20 oz. Mountain
Dew. Occasionally at work I'd snag a handful of Wheat-thins, Gold-
fish, or whatever fingerfood they'd have around. I'd drink gallons
of coffee... I still do. Love the stuff. If I try and eat twice in a
day, I'm driven nuts, until I do another round on the bike. THEN I'm
alright with it. Mostly.  I'm uncomfortable with eating once a day.
I can DO it.. I'm just not very happy about doing it.

I rationalize it well, though. What is a diet, other than a
situation where you burn more calories than you take in?

This is getting a bit long, especially for a post from a first-
timer. I'll let it end here for now, I guess. Take care, and be
well, all. I'd not mind hearing your opinion about what I've said.

Please, though.. don't think I'm just being a smeg-head. What I've
said in here is true.

Respectfully,

Bryan H. Hall

James,

I'm distressed (quite understandably) at your claim of a "cure" for
anorexia. I doubt that a twenty-something self-proclaimed "vampire"
will be able to provide better treatment for the eating disordered
than those people who have selflessly dedicated their lives to the
study and treatment of this affliction.

Your proclamation of this "cure" that you will bestow upon the eating
disordered not only drips with arrogance and self-importance, but
expresses some sort of ideation that the eating disordered are people
to be pitied. Pity is the most prideful emotion. It is an expression
of a person's unhappiness with themselves and their life. Pity, when
exercised, tells everyone that you think yourself better than the
other person, and your actions only serve to bolster your own
deficient ego.

This is not a forum where pity is desired or required. Not only does
it show that you know nothing about the eating disordered, but it
shows that you are openly trying to take advantage of people who are
already lost within themselves. The very mention of people like you,
nonetheless an open assault such as what you have done, makes bile
rise at the back of my throat.

Go peddle your lies elsewhere, dispense your pity on those ignorant
enough not to realise it, and prey on those who are weak enough to
succumb.

We may be bent, but we are not broken.

Julian

Dear Mau,
I read your note and I can totally understand the way you feel right now,
because not long ago I was in your same shoes. I am 47 and I have been fighting
this ED sense I was 16 years old, the last 10 years have been my best years.
After long time in therapy and in and out of Eating Disorder Units in hospital,
I have came to terms that I need to love myself just the way I am. I realize
today I will never wear a 34 waist and that I will never have a flat stomach.
But I realize if I do the things I am explose to do everyday I will be able to
live a good normal life without have to keeping having a relationship with the
toilet, trash cans and that I don't have to live off elax's any more because I
was taking 100 elax's a day and the doctor's said that I should be dead now but
I am not. There are days that life just sucks but I learn that I don't have to
return into bad habits, because that will just make things worse. So my friend I
am here for you my e-mail is flowrstem136@... write anytime.
Your friend Lenny

maupardo <no_reply@yahoogroups.com> wrote:
Hello guys, itīs been a long while since I last posted. However Iīve
been reading the posts of my fellows in this site.
Well, my point, I was in the EDīs clinic in late 2000, then I had
appointments with the psychiatrist, psicologyst and nutritian at
least once a week. My weight went from 47 kilos to 61 kilos, the
last month. Itīs a funny feeling because the doctor says "your
weight is 61 kilos, youīre doing much better! congrats!!" Inside
yourself you feel both satisfaction and disappointment. For youīre
leaving behind your "philosophy", the "principles" that ruled your
life for the last eigth years.
In this moment of my life, Iīm 32, I donīt know if I want to go on
forwards or backwads. Itīs equaly easy to me to have a "healthy" way
of living than taking laxatives, starving, getting rid of the food
and assuming that my life is worthless. Losing 20 kilos.
When people tell me: "Mau, you look terrific, yet handsome", itīs
hard not to translate it  into "you look chubby, youīve failed.
I donīt get used to this "normal" life, so in this days Iīm having
this conflict inside: To be "normal" or to carry on with my habits
of eigth years.
Itīs terrible realising that the smaller menīs size doesnīt fit you
as lose as it use to. That some pants donīt fit you anymore, that
your cheeks are not pale and your eyes are not sunken, thath you can
not see your ribcage entirely in the mirror no more. That your belly
is not like a crater, that you cannot see the bones of your hips
anymore. Maybe never again.

Thanks for listening guys.

Mau


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Hello guys, itīs been a long while since I last posted. However Iīve
been reading the posts of my fellows in this site.
Well, my point, I was in the EDīs clinic in late 2000, then I had
appointments with the psychiatrist, psicologyst and nutritian at
least once a week. My weight went from 47 kilos to 61 kilos, the
last month. Itīs a funny feeling because the doctor says "your
weight is 61 kilos, youīre doing much better! congrats!!" Inside
yourself you feel both satisfaction and disappointment. For youīre
leaving behind your "philosophy", the "principles" that ruled your
life for the last eigth years.
In this moment of my life, Iīm 32, I donīt know if I want to go on
forwards or backwads. Itīs equaly easy to me to have a "healthy" way
of living than taking laxatives, starving, getting rid of the food
and assuming that my life is worthless. Losing 20 kilos.
When people tell me: "Mau, you look terrific, yet handsome", itīs
hard not to translate it  into "you look chubby, youīve failed.
I donīt get used to this "normal" life, so in this days Iīm having
this conflict inside: To be "normal" or to carry on with my habits
of eigth years.
Itīs terrible realising that the smaller menīs size doesnīt fit you
as lose as it use to. That some pants donīt fit you anymore, that
your cheeks are not pale and your eyes are not sunken, thath you can
not see your ribcage entirely in the mirror no more. That your belly
is not like a crater, that you cannot see the bones of your hips
anymore. Maybe never again.

Thanks for listening guys.

Mau

Hello!  My name is Ryan, and I am a male student at the University of Denver. I
am doing research for a sociology paper concerning male eating disorders.  I
chose this topic partially because I have had some issues with bulimia in the
past, and partially because my professor had never heard of male eating
disorders existing as a social problem.  My research paper requires original
interviews with several individuals, and it is this reason that I come to you
today.  If anyone would be so generous as to take 5 minutes to (anonymously)
answer a few questions I have, I would greatly appreciate it.

How long have you had issues with eating?

At what age did you recognize you had an eating disorder?

Which best describes your eating disorder (i.e. anorexia, bulimia, binge-eating
etc.)?

What motivates you to lose weight / change your body image?

Describe a typical eating day for yourself.

Do you experience other disorders (depression, anxiety) co-morbidly with your
ED?

Do any of your close friends know about your disorder? If so, how did / do they
react?

Have you ever sought treatment for your eating disorder?

If so, describe your treatment. To what degree was the program successful?

How would you say a male eating disorder differs from a female eating disorder?

Feel free to elaborate on any answers, or to add anything else you would like to
mention.


If you would be willing to copy and paste these questions, add your replies, and
email me back at eightysix@... that would be fantastic.  I appreciate
your help!



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depending on who I meet.

Where do you live?

tyler0023 <tyler0023@...> wrote:Hello, I recently received funding to make
a video about anorexia
for junior high students from an educational production company.  I
think it is so important to include a male persepective because (as
you know) guys are so often overlooked and fall through the cracks.
No one seems to understand the unique problems that guys face vs.
girls.

This is an opportunity to educate kids about eating disorders and
talk about the specific challenges that guys face.  I hope that if
some of you will speak on camera, you might connect with another
young guy out there, strugling by himself, and possibly even save
someone's life.  That's my sincere goal with this video.

I would love to talk to any guys out there who developed anorexia in
junior high or high school, especially athletes who participated in
wrestling, gymnastics, or swimming.

I realize that anonymity is important to most of you - mostly
because of the stigma that's placed on guys with eating disorders.
Of course I will respect your anonimity if that's what you choose.
The important thing is getting feedback to create a video which is
honest and accurate.  Feel free to email me any comments and good
luck to all of you in getting though this.

sincerely,

eric juhola
tyler0023@...


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Hello, I recently received funding to make a video about anorexia
for junior high students from an educational production company.  I
think it is so important to include a male persepective because (as
you know) guys are so often overlooked and fall through the cracks.
No one seems to understand the unique problems that guys face vs.
girls.

This is an opportunity to educate kids about eating disorders and
talk about the specific challenges that guys face.  I hope that if
some of you will speak on camera, you might connect with another
young guy out there, strugling by himself, and possibly even save
someone's life.  That's my sincere goal with this video.

I would love to talk to any guys out there who developed anorexia in
junior high or high school, especially athletes who participated in
wrestling, gymnastics, or swimming.

I realize that anonymity is important to most of you - mostly
because of the stigma that's placed on guys with eating disorders.
Of course I will respect your anonimity if that's what you choose.
The important thing is getting feedback to create a video which is
honest and accurate.  Feel free to email me any comments and good
luck to all of you in getting though this.

sincerely,

eric juhola
tyler0023@...

If you are "in love" with a man who "laughs at you", then you are in a
distructive relationship and need to get out of it.

Lenny <callboy54@...> wrote:Hi Everyone,

Well I hope that everyone is hanging in there, I just thought that I
would write a little to the group. I am in a relationship with
another guy and don't get me wrong that I love him but I see that I
have been acting out more on my eating disorder since we have been
together lately I have been so depress that I just want to put my
fist thru a window. At times I feel that he doesn't understand that I
can't just turn off my Eating disorder and he doesn't understand all
the time. At times he said that it is all in my head, and I need to
start acting like a grown adult and not a little child. So last night
I had a big binge and I got so sick that I thought I was going to
have my inside come out. I took 110 elax and I went to sleep and I
ate so much shit that I threw it all up and I want to put my fingers
down my throat to get it all out. I just wish that he would not laugh
at me and Love me for just me. Thanks everyone for listening.
Lenny


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Hi Everyone,

Well I hope that everyone is hanging in there, I just thought that I
would write a little to the group. I am in a relationship with
another guy and don't get me wrong that I love him but I see that I
have been acting out more on my eating disorder since we have been
together lately I have been so depress that I just want to put my
fist thru a window. At times I feel that he doesn't understand that I
can't just turn off my Eating disorder and he doesn't understand all
the time. At times he said that it is all in my head, and I need to
start acting like a grown adult and not a little child. So last night
I had a big binge and I got so sick that I thought I was going to
have my inside come out. I took 110 elax and I went to sleep and I
ate so much shit that I threw it all up and I want to put my fingers
down my throat to get it all out. I just wish that he would not laugh
at me and Love me for just me. Thanks everyone for listening.
Lenny

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