Dear Bryan,
That is great that you lost that weight but I am scare that you are
leading your self down a dark road. My doctor was so happy when I
lost 100 lbs but he wasn't happy when I started to look like death
warm over. PLEASE be careful because you can get into that trap and
will not be able to get out. Need to talk e-mail me.
Take Care, Lenny





Dear Bryan--- In maleeatingdisorders@yahoogroups.com, "hinoki01"
<hinoki01@y...> wrote:
> I almost feel like I don't belong here. Maybe I do... maybe I
don't.
> I'll leave it for you, to decide.
>
> If I'm an anorexic, then I'm still in the early stages of it. I've
> dropped from 265 lbs down to 195. I've gone from a 42" waist, to a
> 34" waist that's a bit loose. Hell, my Doctor is having the time of
> her life. She loves the way my blood-pressure has fallen. She
adores
> the fact that my pulse is strong, and slow. Last time she took it,
> it was sub-60. She just doesn't know how I'm doing it.
>
> I bike about 20 miles a day, on a Schwinn Airdyne. Takes me about
an
> hour. You know the drill.. you toss on a movie, set the timer.. get
> up to a reasonable speed (60-65 rpm, for me) and bike until the
> timer beeps. I can't skip a day of biking, though. I've tried. I
can
> practically feel those 70 lbs coming back, even as I try and watch
a
> movie without biking.
>
> I don't eat well.. I'll admit that, up front. The diet started
> innocently enough. Somewhere along the line it.. changed. Became a
> lot stricter. This is what I don't understand, though. Somewhere
> along the line, the strictness intensified.. and became NORMAL. It
> became normal for me to eat once every other day. The meal would
> consist of a small 6" torpedo sub from 7-11 and a 20 oz. Mountain
> Dew. Occasionally at work I'd snag a handful of Wheat-thins, Gold-
> fish, or whatever fingerfood they'd have around. I'd drink gallons
> of coffee... I still do. Love the stuff. If I try and eat twice in
a
> day, I'm driven nuts, until I do another round on the bike. THEN
I'm
> alright with it. Mostly. I'm uncomfortable with eating once a day.
> I can DO it.. I'm just not very happy about doing it.
>
> I rationalize it well, though. What is a diet, other than a
> situation where you burn more calories than you take in?
>
> This is getting a bit long, especially for a post from a first-
> timer. I'll let it end here for now, I guess. Take care, and be
> well, all. I'd not mind hearing your opinion about what I've said.
>
> Please, though.. don't think I'm just being a smeg-head. What I've
> said in here is true.
>
> Respectfully,
>
> Bryan H. Hall