Thanks for being there.
I feel sorry but now I cannot deal with "normal", Iīm weak, I lost
some pounds this week doing terrible things.
Iīm not very proud of it, actually I feel miserable and my self-
esteem dropped some points from the score. I guess itīs my cushion
to cope with my current conflicts. (Next wednesday Iīll submit a
project, I will change to another job afterwards and my boss doesnīt
know yet, I feel old.....).
The other day a friend of mine which I hadnīt seen for a long while
said: You look good (inside my brain: "You look fat!"). That added
to my low self-esteem and to the present pressure Iīm under, invoked
back my old habits of self-destruction. Great!
The bottomline is that I had quited therapy, and herein the result,
I have to go on with my recovery. I just stumbled in the way, and
itīs easier to choose for the path of letting edīs taking over your
life, better than make an effort to be well.

Thanks for your heed

Mau