Dear Nithyashanti,

Namaste ! I want to share my wonderful experience during the Maars India joyshop . I had come for the session in a state of complete dejection, desperation and devoid of all hope. My mind was terribly unhappy, angry and upset with everything. I was even wondering what to do after returning home. I had reached breaking point and felt that I could not continue like this any longer.

But, after meeting you and listening to your words : 'the paysam (kheer) is very sweet and full of love' I felt a bit uplifted.  I felt even better after we discarded our identities and I took on a beautiful, new identity - Golden Sunbeam. And when we greeted each other by saying 'the highest in me bows to the highest in you' - that was the 'turning point' for me. I really felt very light, happy and content.

As the session progressed, a sense of completeness started engulfing me. The best moment was when I was liberated from the fear which had maintained a stranglehold on me almost from birth ( 42 years - till April 11, 2008 when I attended your session). There was a strong belief among my family members that 'I was an unlucky child and would cause my father's death'. When I was younger, this fear used to almost paralyse me. Throughout my life I used to take extra care to see that I never posed any sort of problem for my father and have gone out of my way to help him at all times. I would always be on tenterhooks if anyone fell ill, had some financial setback, or if any thing  went wrong - as all these too would be blamed on me. Till the age of 42, I lived an unhappy, fearful life, always worried that people whom I love ( especially my father)  would die because of me.

Today, freed from this enormous guilt, I realize that no one call kill another. No one can influence anyone's destiny. Whatever my father and others went through were the results of their own actions or inactions and had nothing whatsoever to do with me. This freedom came to me when I did the tapping for removing this main fear under your  guidance.

By the time I had just done the first round, I felt terribly happy. I cannot describe the relief I experienced . When you asked us to rate the intensity of our feelings - I said ' it is zero '. You were amazed and asked me to think of something more specific and more acute . For the next round of tapping, I found it very difficult to find even one specific issue to be worried/angry about. Still, I brought to mind some painful insults from my childhood days and though I tried hard  I could not even recall the faces of the people who had tortured me as  a child. But, when asked again, I simply said '2' so that others will think I am also like them. I did not want to stand out with my funny answers ( as I thought them at that time). The truth is that with 'just the first round of tappings' my fear had vanished taking alongwith it a host of other fears, anxieties, anger, resentment, unhappiness and the whole lot of negative emotions which had hitherto controlled my life.

After meeting you, my life has become 'an ongoing miracle'. And I am terribly, terribly grateful to Mr. Mohan (Founder of Maars India) who very kindly insisted that I should also attend the joyshop alongwith my daughter.

The very next day - Saturday, 12th April, Mr. Mohan called me to the Maars India office and asked me to help him with some writing work for the website etc. Even though I have never worked in an office set-up before, I agreed to help him as I wanted to repay his kindness  in some way.

I started work on Monday, 14th April .There was stiff opposition from my daughter as she wanted the laptop to herself and also wanted to stay home to watch movies. She started pinching, scratching and punching me in order to make me go back home. But, by Tuesday, I realized that a lot of things needed to be set right and it would take a lot of time and effort to do the work properly. Moreover, I was determined to help Mr. Mohan at any cost in whatever way I could. So, I continued coming to office and kept tapping in an intermittent way.

On Wednesday, 16th April, Mr. Mohan gave me an appointment letter. He had already prepared it and kept it just to give it to me on a good day. I was truly amazed. (I had had no notion of working for a remuneration or for a career. I had put my earning days behind  me. I had come into the Maars India office purely to help Mr. Mohan who has been so good to my husband. I understood how much Maars India meant to him and I wanted to do something to make it 'an astounding success').

The appointment letter which Mr. Mohan gave me, I will cherish all my life - it came out of the blue ; it is a beautiful, welcoming letter; it reposes so much confidence in me; it was given without me having to ask for it and I was to be paid a very generous sum for something which I would have willingly given freely. Moreover, Mr. Mohan was kind enough to allow my child to also be with me in the office - she could also partake of the free lunch served at noon.  He gave me complete freedom to do my work either from home or office and flexible working hours. It was and is a 'true blessing from the Universe' and I can only attribute this good fortune to you, my dear Nithyashanti for  channelising so very many blessings into my life.

You might wonder why I am so grateful for the kindness shown to me - I had earlier worked in places where people are treated as nothing better than slaves; where a teacher's child is looked on with contempt and is forced to endure long periods of enforced silence for fear of inviting the wrath of the Principal and other Heads; where knowledge is not valued, appreciation is never forthcoming  and where people are treated with disrespect. Toiling in that miserable work-environment throughout my youth, I never, ever thought that I would get a good, kind, understanding Boss, a comfortable work-environment, kindness from colleagues, happiness while doing my work and acceptance of my daughter. Just one session with you has put the lid on all my past misfortunes and opened the gates of a beautiful, new world to me. People often think I exaggerate in my happiness. When you have suffered so long, so deeply and so hopelessly for so many years,  naturally, the joy that you experience will spring up as a huge fountain and splash all over. There is no containing the wonderful happiness brimming within me - I have no words to express my gratitude, my contentment, the peace within and the laughter without. Thanks to you, nowadays, I am all smiles ! ( And so it is …. And so it is ….)

Every day has brought with it many blessings in various forms - be it physical healing, emotional happiness, sense of security, climbing the elevator ( earlier I would take the stairs or hold my husband's hand in a death-grip while ascending or descending an elevator), laughter at home, purchasing useful things effortlessly, getting hold of a good plumber - the list goes on.

The crowning miracle is that my fear of 'my father's death' vanished and I went bravely to see him on Saturday, June 14. ( I had left Chennai without seeing him for I feared he would die if I met him). And I am happy to tell you that 'my father is happy, healthy and only looks a bit old'. I taught the EFT technique to my sister, mother and father and asked them to try it on everything that bothers them. My mother has been experiencing tremendous relief from her arthritic pains and is joyfully doing her work. She sounds happier and healthier. I thank you for bringing so much happiness into her life.

I would not have shared this with anyone for fear of being too boring / not being believed . I was afraid that some people might think I am exaggerating, talking too much or imagining things. But, yesterday night, an old, terribly ill lady called me up and wanted to know how Eft can help her.  Her pathetic condition, her tears moved me and I decided that I should share my experience with many others without feeling any embarrassment. So many people are suffering and they are looking for help from some quarter. This lady is my daughter's friend's grandmother and she has been confined to a wheelchair for nearly 15 years and now, for the past 2 years , she has become bedridden. I have sent all details about you, your joyshops, website etc.  to her granddaughter and also translated the EFT techniques into Tamil for the grandmother to practice. I pray that she will be healed and will soon share her wonderful healing miracle with all of us.

Dear Nithyashanti, the highest in me bows to the splendour of the highest in you and my heart is overwhelmed with gratitude for this continuing happiness in my life and the lives of those whom I hold dear.  Thank you for sharing Eft with us and for elevating our souls to a higher plane. I pray that God keeps you always in the hollow of His hand and blesses you even further to spread 'happiness throughout the Universe'. And so it is …. And so it is …

Best Regards,

Golden Sunbeam

( Geetha Murlidar )

Maars India

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