I'm a recovering violence addict. From the age of 12 I had sought out certain
men to physically and sometimes sexually abuse me for my 'sins'. It's so
addicting and destructive, that 8 years after the last of the beatings, after
having my children and a marriage, I
found myself addicted to Meth, homeless and lost custody of my babies. To escape
the pain of my existence, I ran back to my abusers for punishment. They almost
KILLED ME. Its sometimes just as addicting to be a victim as it is to abuse. I
would abuse myself with drugs, knives, broken glass and a dangerous lifetyle. I
THANK GOD, that I am alive today. I am a 23 year old mother of 3 daughters, have
graduated a 6 month behavioral modification/drug treatment program and have
custody of my kids. I have a YEAR clean on July 13th. I had abandoned my ENTIRE
life when I came to a new city for treatment. I left all of my 'associates' to
have a new life. I thank god my husband and children never knew about the
'other' me. anyone wanna share their syories with me? I feel like freak half the
time because I dont know anyone one who is whre I was/am.

Star