It all started with a bloody video game, can you believe that? While
I did not know what masturbation was at the time, I first "got off"
on two chicks mauling each other on a popular fighting game. It
wasn't that bad at first, but then we got the internet. Which took
my sin one step higher. I was first into belly punching and just
normal girl on girl wrestling, or guy dominating girl wrestling. But
now my sin has... erm, "evolved." Still wrestling, but now total
domination, fondoling, and even some fantasy rape movies and
stories, I have even written a couple of my own. As someone who has
supposedly been a "little goody two shoe christian" this is rather
odd, because I always used to avoid "bad stuff." I wish I had known
about this when I started... I would give anything to go back and
change it. But it's too late now, all I know is that this addiction
has sucked up five years of my life. I pray every night that God
will release me from this, but I just cannot stop... I am turning 21
soon and would like to get rid of this before I become a "true"
adult, because I sure as heck don't plan on marriage until this is
behind me, any help and prayers would be of immense help, thank you.