I've been trying to respond to your post for
quite some time, and I'm finally doing so.<br>I
understand your pain, confusion, and frustration, and I
would like you to know that you're not alone.<br>I was
born with sever case of hypospadias. I'm 41 yo, and
unable to perform sexual intercourse. I do not even know
if I'm intersexed or not. To be honest with you, it
doesn't really matter, it's all so damn
confusing.<br>Well, I'm not going to say that it's ok , because I
know for fact that it's not. I've been down the same
road as you. My parents never talked to me about it. I
love them dearly. I think it was different times then,
and talking to your child about his ambiguous
genitalia was a forbidden thing to do. Oh well, so for
that, we had to know about our own misfortune the hard
way. Growing up was fun for me, but there were those
moments that will always be in our memories. the kids
from school, the humiliation when a woman looks at me
naked, the relationships that end in pain, and
heartache, and of course, the loneliness<br>I think all you
can do is take it one day at a time. I try not to
think about it, but whom am I kidding.. ?? I think
about it every day all the time. I understand, it's a
very hard thing to live with, specially in a society
like ours. I was asked the other day, how come I was
never married.. what's wrong with you..?? well, a lot,
but how could I ever reveal what's wrong with my
penis..?? it's not really a good subject for a conversation
with people who would never understand how we
feel.<br>I bury my self into work. I work about 85 - 90
hours weekly. I know, it's insane, too much, and
physically wrong, but, what else am I supposed to do..?? all
my friends are either married or with someone they
love, and in a relationship. I just realized that I'm
the only single person left , so, I got married to my
work. I'm very thankful that I love my job, it's the
only thing that keeps me sane.<br>I'm sorry if my
message sounds depressing to you. I did not meant it to
be that way. I'm only trying to show you that what
you're going through, is also happening to others around
you.<br>Try to laugh, it's a great cure for depression. Go
out, get busy, do stuff. Be happy.<br>Feel free to
messenger at any tome<br><br>cheers<br>hg