This has been on my mind ever since I got back from the hospital. It has also
helped me to not be so stressed and or take things so personally when it seems
no matter how hard I try, I can't get through to people.

For the last few days I was in the hospital I had a roomate. Recovery 4 months.
Poz female with a cell count of 44. I admit I couldn't offer much assistance in
the recovery part, but I spoke to her about her support system, etc. health
care, etc.

She arrived extremely week, walking with a cane very shaky all over and had been
loosing her balance. I wondered why she didn't atleast have an IV hooked up to
her like I did. And the doctors would come in and talk to her and when they
left I would ask how things were going, etc. She was extremely vague with info
and I got used to that, but when the doc's said they were discharging her and
letting her go home. I wasn't too cool with that. Nothing had changed
regarding her symptoms and she was still shaky, confused and weak. After severa
times of asking her was she okay with that. And she eventually said yes, I had
to let it go.

I thought when you go into the hosp one way you should be discharged completely
different or atleast have an idea of what is going on.

Upon her discharge, I had to assist her downstairs and outside to meet her ride.
She lost her balance and almost fell twice in front of the nurse who was getting
her papers together for her to leave. I wanted to scream! But I realized
whenever I asked the girl if she was okay and was alright with going home and
she said yes, and wasn't ready to put up any protest on her own behalf. There
was nothing I could do. Absolutely nothing. So I got my first lesson, as
surprising as it may seem. You can only help people so much if they are not
willing to except the help/adivice. Don't take it personally. (which I usually
do). If she wasn't willing to speak up for herself my hands were tied.

Marvena







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