Re: [for-and-by-autistics] Hi everyone, I feel so lost...
Steve, I sympathize with you on the loss of your parents and brother. My parents died before I was 20 and my life has been immeasurably different because of that. I was my mother's only child... never met my father's other kids so don't know a thing about them. I'm sorry your other relatives have made your life harder than it needs to be. People need to stick together and help each other out in these hard times, instead of picking each other to pieces.
Congratulations on getting, and staying clean. I know it is hard... but it's the first step toward a successful life. I hope you'll learn to not hate your brother because that hatred will poison your life as badly as the alcohol did if you let it. You can still likely get disability. If you qualified before you probably still do... but work would be better... SSI is a last resort: don't be afraid to reach out for it if you just can't get by without it.
I, too, feel like I've just awakened, although for me it's been over 20 years. Maybe I shut down when my own parents died... I don't know. But waking up to the current world situation (nightmare) makes me want to go back to sleep! As for how to survive, just take it one baby step at a time and do your best. You can't do more than your best. Don't berate yourself for the past, kiss it goodbye and let it go. Focus on NOW and the near future... and LET yourself expand out of your comfort zone: you can't achieve your goals any other way.
Oh... yes... goals. Many of us hate that word, but the concept is a good one, whatever you want to call them. I like the word deadlines, myself...
I can help you put a resume together, if finding work is on the agenda. Please let me know if you need me.
In 2001 my parents suddenly died. I started drinking heavily. Then in
2002 my favorite brother died. I continued drinking & lost direction
in life. My relatives invaded my parents house and stole financial
documents. Then said bad things about my brothers & I. So I don't
have ANY contact with my relatives. In 2006 I got clean but it took
another 2 years to clear my head out.
I am all alone and scared. Oh I have an older brother but he is an
ahole. There is no sentiment between us no matter how much I tried and
still try. I hate his guts. I could of gotten disability but never
applied -long story. Job wise I need to make more money and also need
to get a roomate before I am evicted.
Why did I let so many years elapse (2001-now) before I "woke up?" Now
I am in dire financial straits...all these years...I could be self-
employed by now. Well I did try to have an internet company but drank
it away.
How do I survive? I am so out of place in this cold, cruel world.
Doing menial jobs like telemarketing...well that's it for now.
Thanks,
Steve
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