In 2001 my parents suddenly died. I started drinking heavily. Then in
2002 my favorite brother died. I continued drinking & lost direction
in life. My relatives invaded my parents house and stole financial
documents. Then said bad things about my brothers & I. So I don't
have ANY contact with my relatives. In 2006 I got clean but it took
another 2 years to clear my head out.

I am all alone and scared. Oh I have an older brother but he is an
ahole. There is no sentiment between us no matter how much I tried and
still try. I hate his guts. I could of gotten disability but never
applied -long story. Job wise I need to make more money and also need
to get a roomate before I am evicted.

Why did I let so many years elapse (2001-now) before I "woke up?" Now
I am in dire financial straits...all these years...I could be self-
employed by now. Well I did try to have an internet company but drank
it away.

How do I survive? I am so out of place in this cold, cruel world.
Doing menial jobs like telemarketing...well that's it for now.

Thanks,

Steve