Just wanted to update you all and thank you for your kind replies.
Michael died on wenesday 23rd june 2004 @5.25 a.m.in my arms with
his brother and girlfriend by his side.It was far from peacefull.
The drugs gave him no relief at the end. He was very distressed and
agitated and scared for 3 and 1/2 hours before his final breath.It
was so upsetting for us all as there was nothing we could do to give
him relief. One nurse said that despite the medication, he just
didnt want to go, nice thought, but i believe he was not given
enough and that the end should have been peacefull as we were
promised and not as horrific as it was.But, at last, he has no
pain.Its so sad that death was to be his only escape from this. He
went through hell with this disease.It is such a vicious cancer,
like an alien invading the body that wont give up. Michael is to be
cremated on thursday, and on that day, I will hold his hand for the
last time ever which is so hard to come to terms with. I just cant
imagine that I will never see him again.Never... I will allways read
this site, as I hope one day to read that a cure has been found,
although it would be too late for Michael.I would also urge families
not to give up,It is a hard journey and some people do survive this
thing and go on to have full lives and children too.