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Harriette,
Thank you so much for the warm response and encouraging message.
I understand and have often heard from my therapist tell me that I need to live in today. Handle only today, or that afternoon, or hour. Whatever it takes to make it through that day. I know I am living way too much in the past, trying to figure things out. I also recognize that I am afraid of the future and what it holds. I don't want more of this "prison" I am in.
I did go to the site you recommended and listened to an audio clip. I also checked out the author and his books. There are parts that I truly believe and accept, such as living in the now and we are in control of our thoughts and spirituality. I am uncomfortable though when they start talking about sending out my vibrations and to become one with my surroundings and the implications that the spiritual is me and how I interact with the universe.
I think those parts are a little more then I can handle. I do want to find myself, to be happy with myself, and to learn how to make more of those good times that Dr Holstein mentioned. I think what I need is a little more conservative pathway in finding it. Please don't feel like I have rejected your beliefs. I do believe in a lot of what you said. Guess we each need to find our own path and it is great of you to share with me how you found yours. I do so hope that somehow, somewhere my head and heart will get it and I'll stop putting myself down and instead look up and want to tear down the walls I'm living behind. Maybe I'll never get there, I just don't know I'm so tired of all the medicines and all it does is get me by. Thanks again, and yes please keep in touch. I hope other will join in our conversations and share their thoughts too. Take care...
Shar
----- Original Message -----From: Harriette BlyeSent: Thursday, October 02, 2003 10:52 PMSubject: Re: [encself] Where is Everyone?Hi Shar,
I have not gotten any response from this group.
I forgot that I was on it. It does sound like a great idea.
I understand where you are at this moment because
I was there 2 years ago. I am 1,000% better. And
you will be too. You too are a seeker.
You are looking for a solution to your feelings and you will find it.
These are some of the things I did in the beginning that really helped me.
This is fabulous site. Order the free CD and start reading the newsletters.
http://www.abraham-hicks.com
I Read The Power Of Now by Eckhart Toole. It made me realize
that I was living my life in the past and future. I lost an entire summer
living in the past. What a shame. I now live in the moment. This is all I
have.
The time I am spending with you right now and I am enjoying it fully.
It puts life into prospective. I realized that I was living my life in
fear.
I learned not to be afraid and to forgive myself.
Please keep in touch, It is good if we can support each other.
PS There are no magic pills just a lot of hard work but
it so worth it to feel the bliss I feel most of the time.
All the best,
Harriette Blye
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----- Original Message -----
From: "shar1moment" <shar1@...>
To: <encself@yahoogroups.com>
Sent: Thursday, October 02, 2003 8:51 PM
Subject: [encself] Where is Everyone?
> Hello to everyone that is hiding out there in computerland. I am new
> to this site. Actually it is the second time I've joined because the
> first time I could never find anyone to chat with and nobody was
> posting any messages.
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> I know there are 50+ members, so please someone come forward. I need
> friends and support. I can't make the changes alone.
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> You asked what makes a moment wonderful or terrible. Well the text
> book answer from the self-help books I've read would say that it is
> attitude. We supposedly control how we let things affect us. If it
> is a bad incident like I've had with losing my job. I tend to dwell
> on that and think of all the things "I" did wrong. If it is
> something good that happened, like a compliments on my website, I
> tend to shrug it off as nothing. It was just a comment...that's all.
> My problem is that my head "knows" what I "should" be thinking. I
> just don't know how to make my heart believe anything good about
> myself. It is so much a part of who I am that I think in a way I am
> scared to lose that. Even if it is making me sick and miserable.
> Dumb huh? I don't know how to let myself break down that high, thick
> wall that I have built.
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> I am so tired of the depression and panic attacks. I am tired of
> fighting it alone. I want more good times, but I tend to shrink away
> from people. I wish that it was majic that made the difference. If
> it was I'd be better after all the majic pills I take. It know it
> takes persistence in trying to change my attitude on how I view
> things. To stop seeing everything as negative or bad. To realize I
> don't have to let people control me, or my emotions. I decide how I
> want to react and feel.
>
> I am just so overwhelmed. I have been working on this for several
> years and don't feel like I'm making much progress. Please won't
> some of you come out of hiding and share. I've had a really bad week
> and it scares me. I'd like to have somewhere like this to come too.
>
> Dr Holstein you have a wonderful newsletter and some great articles.
> I like the exercises you suggest for us. I wish a bunch of us could
> meet on here and work on them or review them or share what we
> learned. I need something positive to hang on to. Okay, take care
> everyone and I'll be watching to see if I get a response or if anyone
> even reads this. Thanks for letting me express myself.
>
> Shar
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