well, I posted once and i said I would again. Unfortunately things
have not been going so well in my case. Every month or so I have
court for the 2 men who are on trial for my brother's murder. Every
month its usually nothing.

This month the judge denied the motion to seperate their trials,
which is a small victory for us. Right after that my girlfriend, who
was like my dream girl since I was a young kid, broke up with me
because she claimed she could not deal with my stress anymore and
that she was afraid that she was not gonna be able to help me when my
brothers case goes to trial.

Since then I feel like my world is falling apart. I love her very
much and have for a long time, I always pictured her as probably the
ONLY one who could put up with my problems and help me though it, but
if she cant, I dunno if anyone can.

I havent or laughed in days, and thats not me, I just feel lost.