I am having an appointment with the Pain Clinic at my VA, and I'm
wondering if they might take away my freedom? I feel that I have never
really had that much power, even before the car accident/ coma, so it
made me start to think that since they made this appointment, but I
think that I had asked for it, because of my pain and lack of the
ability to sleep. One reason is the pain, but the other is the
nightmares of seeing people being cut open to save them, and a lot
didn't make it, and they few that did, would die in the VA not long
afterwards. I had thought that I had put up a good wall, but it was
undermined by the careless way I took my life after that. I began to not
fear dying, and this led to my driving too fast and causing my accident,
and my almost death. So and because I am in continual pain, I have
talked about killing myself, perhaps one too many times. My faith and
belief in myhigher Power, which I'll call God, because God has helped me
survive what I did, and what I am still working through. My question is
can they take my freedom from me?

I hope that it's ok to ask this?



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