Hey all,

I attempted on June 14th.

I feel myself becoming unsteady again. I really don't have a solution to my
problems. I can't think too far ahead. I can only allow myself to focus on
the few minutes I exist within......maybe think far enough ahead to figure
out what I'll make for supper. But then the brain begins to send out
feelers into future thoughts. And I can't allow that or I die.

When I feel the overwhelming despair coming on (because of having some
thoughts into the future......even only into the next day!)....then I take a
little more meds to rather "daze" me. And then that allows me to only think
within the few minutes around me.

Does this make sense??

I am having thoughts of cutting myself. I did that a few weeks before I
actually attempted. But to cut seems like a release of sorts.

I'm just rambling.

Sandy
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