i guess no one is around...not feeling very well lately i am
preparing for this trip...the trip of a lifetime...and i just keep
getting more and more depressed...it seems like nothing for this trip
can go right...

my boss keeps screwing me around about wether i have a job or not it
is a temp assignment for a private employer...he was supposed to call
over the weekend and tell me if i work today...i told him if i did
not hear i was not coming in because i cant afford the gas to sit in
traffic just to go home again...so he calls me at 930 to ask where i
am i am like i am at home u did not call so i did not come i so he is
like ok ill have to call you bak...that was 20 minutes ago

of course when i hear the phone in the other room i jumped up to get
it because it goes to voice mail after 3 rings...when i did the chair
i was sitting on tipped over and broke onna the presents i bought for
someone i was supposed to take with me...and since my job is f***ing
me over i have under $100 as is to go on this trip

and to top it off my dad told me he would send me money to help m out
like a month ago as a birthday xmas present and i have not seen a
penny and i leave in 2 weeks...

i even started retuning stuff i bought becase i am so desperate...and
i am ready to take some of my clothes to a consinment store and see
if they will buy them...even though i already cut my wardrobe down to
next to nothing before i moved to az 2 months ago so i dont really
have much to sell...

why cant anything go right for me right now...