I had what I might want to call a miracle happen yesterday, something

I had really and profoundly given up on as a possibility or even

probability a great many years ago.



The miracle just turned up. I am still astonished and a little shell

shocked but it also got me to start thinking about how it came to be,

what the role of the Thought Flow process was in this unfoldment and

what this has practically done for me personally in the month or so

since I first discovered it.



There is a clear and logical sequence of events and I thought I'd like

to share them with you, so you can compare them with yours, and see

what we make of this.



When I first came up with TF, it was a major, major breakthrough for

me and also, a real tool for reducing the constant stress, worry (and

most likely, radioactively overheated mind circuitry as well!) which

had made my life a misery for as long as I remembered.



The same questions, in different guises, over and over again - I did a

LOT of physically chucking them over the top the first few days. I

really did NOT do this to get any answers but to just get a little bit

of relief from this endless churning with the corresponding horrible

sensations and energy drainings.



However, within a week, the first couple of answers just materialised

literally out of the blue. I would just be doing nothing in particular

and all of a sudden, there's this thought or idea and it really is

new, amazing and indicating a totally new direction for the ongoing

enquiries.



I'd like to point out that these "answers" were not at all of a linear

nature - it wasn't like, "How do I get to be a millionaire?" Answer:

"Here's the chemical formula for immortality. Enjoy."



They were very fundamental, very structural and very, very deep. Both

were so very personal that I won't go into the specifics, but one

answer had the effect that it really was as though blinkers had been

taken off my eyes and I saw for the first time what I was actually

doing in my life.



I was truly shocked to understand that virtually 99% of my daily

activity were *repetitive compulsive behaviours* which were barely

masquerading as activities related to leading a meaningful and

purposeful life, but instead were designed expressively and

exclusively to reduce anxiety.



This even included what I had thought to be leisure activities and

hobbies - to make a long story short, it basically worked like this.



Get a bill in the mail, instant major rise in anxiety (and entirely

irrespective of as well as unrelated to the fact that I have enough

funds these days to pay them!). This *directly* causes an immediate,

reflexive and ritualistic outburst of completely predictable activity

including writing an article, ordering some advertising, updating a

database and a website, editing a handy vast or preferably endless

document, pasting hyperlinks and messing around with mailing list

addresses or similar mind-numbing repetitive drills.



Fun thing was though that once I saw this, it was clear that these

activities would NOT actually lead to earning more money (and they

never had and never did!) - it was all just close enough in that

"business" ballpark to SEEM to serve as an appropriately pro-active

fight-or-flight response on the topic and it reduced my stress levels

slowly over a period of 5-6 hours to a point where I could take a deep

breath at last and stop. From a useful point of view, the practical

effects of these ritual activities were so minimal that frankly, I

might as well have spend that time washing my hands over and over

again! But then, their primary function was never to resolve the root

cause of the money anxiety but just to reduce stress, so that made

perfect sense.



Outbursts of housework or cooking were fight-or-flight responses to

anxiety over children or not being a good mother. Just exactly as with

the clerical work, the cause-and-effect to actually DO SOMETHING

PROACTIVE about the underlying problems was tenuous to say the least,

if not entirely non-existent. Clearly, one cannot combat ones

childrens behavioural problems by hoovering a bedroom (!!) but one CAN

combat ones anxiety over the same quite nicely in that way.



As if that wasn't already bad enough, it turned out that singing,

painting and writing poetry were structurally exactly the same yet

again - only they were activities I would undertake in response to an

anxiety producing thought or idea that I wasn't fulfilling my creative

potential or such. And yet again, how tenuous are those activities

even linked to anything even touching the reason and core for such

anxieties? Just - j-u-u-st! - enough that by doing THOSE things for

5-6 hours at a time (and sometimes considerably longer!), the pressure

would recede on that topic - and then we're back with an open space to

go into any of the others, immediately and near enough seamlessly. An

endless merry go round between work stations, indeed.



I got to see that *my entire life* was really, 99% emergency anxiety

control and all of it AWAY FROM FEAR motivated - fear motivated but

not towards anything long term proactive, generative or that would

solve the problem finally at all, but a totally negative set up and

structure (and we do know how the energy body hates us running NO!!

reversals!).



I still didn't believe it was really and truly as bad as this until I

started to treat the anxiety/fear peaks that triggered the repetitive

behaviours - mainly with snow globes! - and found myself with great

long days and nights and absolutely nothing left to do as the

motivation for doing these repetitive tasks collapsed completely and I

stopped doing them. Which left me with nothing. Literally. Take out

these big, 6 hour chunks previously occupied by "hand washing" which

were being triggered *by a single thought* as soon as there was the

slightest breather - and then what do you do with your time????



At that point, I found three more backup behaviours. One was

socialising (including phone and email as well as personal), one was

spurious sleeping/attacks of tiredness and the third was escape into

dreamworld (TV, book, writing story, doing a "meditation", Project

Sanctuary, day dreaming et al). It was actually quite easy to isolate

the exact triggers for each one of those, really specific they were

and running like clockwork - good God! I've been a clockwork mouse

with a set repertoire of anxiety medicating behaviours all these years

and mistook it for leading a life!



I was by now deeply intrigued as to what would happen to me if I

stopped all of it, what I would do. I had no idea. It could have been

anything at all! All this time, I might have been destined to become a

farmer or knit socks for the Red Cross and never knew!



And what happened when I refused to engage in any of the anxiety

medication behaviours was to my utter astonishment that I became aware

of just how afraid I was constantly and of absolutely everything. It

was no wonder that the smallest little thing would send me into an

instant frenzy of repetive rituals when the baseline of anxiety was

already that high, all the time!



I couldn't believe how bad this was, or how pervasive. What really

deep seated faith I had in having no control over my life, my body, my

finances. Over keeping my kids safe, a roof over our heads, being

popular or useful enough to somehow avoid being stoned by the

neighbours or something like that (!). Ridiculous but absolutely real

mini panic attacks in the supermarket as I barely dare to look at a

box of chocolates, a can of beans or even a loaf of bread - I mustn't

buy this, it will make me even fatter, even more unlovable and

unworthy than I already am, I will waste money that I need to survive

elsewhere, I can't afford it, this is dangerous ... aaargh!!



At one point during this experiment in going cold turkey on my anxiety

behaviours, I was in my bedroom and became afraid of every single

thing - all those books shouting to be read, mirrors demanding to

reflect something, pictures demanding to be seen, clothes demanding to

be folded or worn incessantly, dust screaming at me to be removed,

even a coathanger on the picture rail being a threat by its very

presence and the fact that it should be *inside* the closet but I did

not have the energy left to get up and move it, thus demonstrating my

failure and helplessness - a total cacophony of panic!



Being absolutely terrified of *dust* and then all the rest not ever

having been available to me in consciousness like that before (I

always thought I thought I was pretty brave, capable and strong!) I

decided to go with it, rather than to try and medicate it or tap it

away this time, stay with it, try and understand it, find out what

that was all about. I really couldn't work it out beyond a vague

notion that I might have a death phobia or something.



So, in the end, I put the question to the Thought Flow system and went

to bed, exhausted with all the fearing.



The next evening and after another day full of constant terror, I

finally got my answer.



I watched my own fingers type the words, sexual abuse surviver support

group, into a Google bar and truly could not believe I was doing it,

that I was allowing it, that it was really happening. It was a most

extraordinary moment and experience, and although there were many bits

of me totally appalled, shocked and horrified, there were also many

others which went, "There you have it. You asked for it, didn't you.

What's wrong with you, what's wrong with your life, what you're

supposed to be doing with yourself. What you need to be addressing to

move towards Even Flow. You asked specifically what is holding you

back and contorting your reality like this. You asked why nothing ever

feels quite real and time and time again, you asked, "What the hell is

wrong with me???"



"Ok, so you thought those questions were rethorical and metaphorical

and meaningless and just garbage to chuck out of sight and out of

mind - but you and I both know, it took a long time to get you here

and there you are.



"This is a truly fundamental snarfu in your energy body which should

have been addressed 40 years ago and which you have spent your entire

lifetime thus far trying to work around, ending up with a bizarre life

that never made any sense to anyone at all, least of all yourself, as

a simple, direct, cause-and-effect result - completely logical in all

ways.



"Get to work and sort it out, then we'll see about the next steps

after that."



So, that's what I've been working with over the last couple of weeks

and as a direct result of using the Thought Flow system of taking

questions from the mind and sending them elsewhere for further

processing.



All those many, many questions, and basically, one single answer to

move it all along towards an eventual resolution, and it is so obvious

at that, it really hurts.



Joining the group was a really, really good move. Good God, there are

all these people who have *the exact same symptoms* that I have but I

thought basically I was just completely insane or genetically damaged

or something! With a single individual client at a time I could "fail

to notice" the similarities, but on mass, blinkers off and with a new

will to actually take notice - wow. These problems I have/had are not

the mark of the devil but indeed, they are structural and perfectly

normal to that type of energetic injury.



And, what's even better still, there was really never any reason for

all this terror, well at least not for the last 25 years. I see the

cause-and-effect relationships and I have *all the resources* and then

twenty times more on top to deal with these old issues and injuries,

wrongful connections and truly bizarre self fulfilling prophecies you

can't blame a freaked out 4 year old for considering as insurmountable

but which hold hardly a challenge to a 44 year old professional Energy

Therapies researcher.



Right down to one of the core problems of the whole setup, namely to

know what was real and what was imagined - it took me less than a

tenth of a second to get it that you just simply don't discriminate

and treat them both the same, completely at face value and as they are

presented - that way you can't go wrong and everything that needs

healing, gets healed (and nothing gets denigrated, missed or left out

in the cold!).



The instant I thought it, and without doing any treatments at all,

there was a huge sigh of relief all through my body, followed by the

weirdest wave of energy and at first I thought I was having a fit or a

strange turn of some kind but then it occurred to me that this could

possibly be what it feels like when the anxiety is gone for a moment.



It is a very, very strange thing indeed because I would have thought

that it would be a *lower* energy state than the highly charged

buzzing anxiety - but actually, it is more energised AND calmer at the

same time. Isn't that the weirdest thing? The buzzing anxiety is a

wind up but at the same time a draining too, like an engine spinning

insanely but the gears aren't engaged.



State of play now? Instant enlightenment for Silvia?



Sorry, I'm afraid I can't give you that after your patient sojourn

through my story here :-)



On the bright side, I'm no longer afraid of the dust and indeed, there

is no dust now any longer (but even if there was, it no longer scares

me <g>)



I'm having all sorts of unusual thoughts, many, many insights, waves

of strange and unknowable emotions, unexpected attacks of something or

other but it doesn't really wind me up because that's to be expected

with some huge erea of the energy system that hasn't been touched in

40 years and which is sincerely disrupted.



Mostly, I just let it happen and try and get to know it - can't say

that I can ever remember having experienced half these states or

feelings or even thoughts before, they seem completely alien but also,

rather attractive, intriguing, very honest and always remarkably

horizon-widening.



If it is clearly something in need of healing of course I attend to it

as soon as possible and as swiftly as possible; ET mostly, but

sometimes EFT as well and sometimes, just a loving thought suffices to

put it all to rights.



Why did I tell you all of this?



Well firstly and clearly, because I wanted to communicate about it,

share it, if you will. <smiles> No other reason actually, really, on

this pleasant Sunday dawn.



But there's some other aspects to this too.



If there's any parts of you listening now, DID or other, that have

been ashamed or terrified also of some discovery or other for ages

like I must have been, no, actually was for all these years, I'd like

you to know that the time has come for not worrying about that anymore

and moving towards resolution now with the best will and best speed

(and this is of course, far wider in principle than just sexual

abuse - there are as many ways to sustain energy body damage at any

age than there are ways to count all the stars!).



Although time is NOT of the essence in the good ol' self actualisation

game, from a practical standpoint there is all merit to start having

actualised adult reality fun for as long as possible and that means,

starting as quickly as possible, of course :-)



Whatever you suspect or know might be majorly wrong with you, I

suspect will turn out to be much the same as with me and all these

clients I used to see - simply an energetic injury set sustained at

some time, nothing more or nothing less, some more severe than others

but all well up for sorting out now.



It doesn't have to be a mad struggle with good and evil, insanity,

deformity or crazy emotions anymore that goes on forever, wrestling

the demon monsters of forgiveness, betrayal, absolution, retribution,

revenge and hatred in a hopeless struggle; its just not like that

anymore.



We understand emotions fundamentally different now and don't need to

be afraid of them any longer, don't need to hold one kind and deny the

very existence of the other, or try and hide all of it because we're

afraid no-one will love us if we're not pretending to be perfect all

the time and then we must surely die!



We don't need to be ashamed of having emotions any more. Or, for that

matter, ashamed of having reasons for the emotions - how can you be

ashamed of a jagged tear in your energy body, after all? It just

doesn't make any sense any more to think like that.



We understand now that having and experiencing these emotions, having

sustained these injuries in the energy system, whatever they are and

however they arose, is not about being right or wrong, good or bad any

longer, and all that remains now is for all of us to take a deep

breath and make a real desire towards Even Flow - not towards money or

houses or acclaim or any of those anxiety-plasters, nor even better

lovers or better beauty (to attract/deserve better anxiety

plasters!!!), but just Even Flow for its own sake, nothing else, for

nothing else will really do at the end of the day - accept NO

substitutes!



Let's get that sorted FIRST and then we go out and do these other

things because honestly, it is going to be so much easier that way

round, we have no conception of just how smooth and easy as yet.



I was always aware of the "abuse issue" on some level but no matter

what, I was way, way too stressed out and afraid to try and do

anything about it, and I also absolutely expected when the lid was

finally lifted that this incredible nervous breakdown abreaction

insanity for many months on end would have to ensue that would leave

me as the eternal abuse victim, a totally burned out shell of a person

at the end of it, feebly forgiving all and sundry and altogether

1984-style broken to the Louise Hay party line.



I was very wrong about that, I am delighted to discover; indeed you

could say in the contrary, the processes are so illuminating, freeing,

empowering and fascinating it is actually quite wonderful, desirable

and dare I say it? :-) rather exciting - even when it turns scary, sad

or furious for a time.



After all, it is only energy doing its energy thing :-)



My current challenge is to discover what I actually LIKE and WANT as

I've spent all this time just peddling away from fear in full out

reverse (yes you can make the connection to energy reversals, by all

means!) that I haven't a clue as to how to orient myself in a

different direction, in the absence of the whip wielding slave master

Mr Fear prescribing every second of my day, and the only goals I have

known so far turning out to be yet more anxiety plasters if the truth

be known.



I'll take my time over it as I get to know myself in honesty a bit

better and whatever it is, I have all faith indeed, that it will come

to me in due course. One "miracle" has already arrived, last night.

That alone was worth - well! :-)))



So, ladies and gentlemen all, thank you for listening so patiently and

greetings to you wherever you are in your own discoveries and

unfoldments!



I bid thee goodnite :-)



Silvia







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Wow Silvia, BIG HUGS.....you're a brave woman, I really believe its the

road less travelled to face your anxieties and allow them to be there to

tell you the truth. Thank you so much for sharing what you did. This is my

story as well.



Its interesting though, I also see the gift in your coping behaviour,

there's always a silver lining, you've achieved so much with your anxiety

soothing behaviour. But now to take away the anxiety as a motivator, what

would you do? I sometimes think its like that saying, Before Enlightenment

chop wood, after enlightenment chop wood. LOL. You may very well do the

same thing, but with awareness.



Kate



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Hey everyone,



as during the past week I'm finally playing a bit more with ET

(parallel to ED parallel to Golden Horse and

just reading and reading and absorbing your articles and writings

about Emotrance and your other projects, Silvia, I stumbled upon this old

post of yours after having searched the group for the

keyword "helplessness" as I felt there might already be something

written on this thing that bothers me at the moment the most, this

seemingly awful twisted

fear/confusion/helplessness/what-the-fuck-is-going-on/I-have-to-do-everything-to\

day/etc./pp.

thing being similar to the one you so exactly described.



And what can I say ...



Thank you very much for the *Thought Flow Pattern* (A pity it isn't

included in the German ET manual, anyway, a joy to have found it now

:)) and

let me say that doing this on some thoughts it feels really helpful

and releasing, to just be able to throw the thoughts over your back,

without having to soften&flow and repair channels and heal fault lines

and all this which for me at the moment is difficult to stick to on my

own because of all the fear involved -- similar to how you decribed in

your post back then. This being driven by fear -- I know it very well

and it feels very empowering to read that it can indeed be overcome,

that stopping to do all this nonsense and throwing all those thought

over your back and standing up to your fears doesn't neccessarily lead

to complete devastation and breakdown and emptiness and nothingness (a

something can only turn into a something, or how did it go :D).



This paragraph ringed quite true (although 99% sounds sooo devastating

:D):



> I got to see that *my entire life* was really, 99% emergency anxiety

> control and all of it AWAY FROM FEAR motivated - fear motivated but

> not towards anything long term proactive, generative or that would

> solve the problem finally at all, but a totally negative set up and

> structure (and we do know how the energy body hates us running NO!!

> reversals!).



Well, I'm glad I've already contacted two ETPs near where I live/will

move to later this year and that I will be able to get extra support

from them in personal consultations.



But what soothes me the most is that my underlying sense that behind

all of this fear/avoiding/helpless/chaotic behaviors and states there

lies one (or lie some) central energetic injurie(s) (not sexual, but

surely energetic/emotional abuse; might be located where the fault

lines are), that this might indeed be true.



And all this being chaotic and not getting things done might be some

big fat signpost to sort this major EREA(s) out FIRST.



> I still didn't believe it was really and truly as bad as this until

> I started to treat the anxiety/fear peaks that triggered the

> repetitive behaviours - mainly with snow globes!

Now how does that work?



Thank you for sharing this, Silvia, really thank you, and now I

additionally ask you folks experienced with ET: Does some pattern come

to your mind on how

to cope with general confusion and not knowing what to do next, not

knowing where to start, because everything seems like a number one

priority, feeling like you fall apart into a thousand little pieces?



I will

do my share work in thought-flowing all of this, doing ET as far as I

manage and stuff but I reckon I could

appreciate some of your advice.



This post is as cluttered as I feel at the moment. But I want to start

getting tips forum you experienced ET practioners and players alike

*before* reaching enlighenment :D. Next post will be more evolved ...



*hidesawaysomewhereandthoughtflowssomemore*



Max.

P.S.: I will still have to soften&flow your review answer on my review

on the Golden Horse, Silvia, because some old energy injuries were

quite hit by your appreciation.

Good for practising, I hope one day, I'll be able to take it all in,

through, and out.

I think I'll administer some Energy Dancing to me now, or some Nature

;):P.

  > Does some pattern come

> to your mind on how

> to cope with general confusion and not knowing what to do next, not

> knowing where to start, because everything seems like a number one

> priority, feeling like you fall apart into a thousand little pieces?



Yeah. What IMMEDIATELY sprang to mind is Heart Healing. It centers you

on your heart of energy and puts whatever you've got to give THERE in

preference to anywhere else.



This stabilises - well EVERYTHING. It's just incredible how a few extra

percent of energy going through the energy heart transforms our feelings

and thoughts about - yeah well everything!



Just putting your hands on your heart, taking two or three deep breaths

and thinking/saying strongly, "What I have to give, I give to you!" is

superb safety anchor and instant energy calming technique. When I used

to do this a lot, I could fairly feel and hear the wheels grinding to a

halt, then starting to spin in the opposite direction and gravity wasn't

an issue anymore, everything seemed lighter, the lights got brighter and

there was this HUGE sense of relief.



It's interesting to observe that Thought Flow and Heart Healing are very

close together, developmental wise - the one goes hand in hand with the

other it seems, and they're examples of working with the HEROS system.



ET has a lot of depth and most folk haven't really started going into

the Level 2 (Living Energy) and 3 (Energy Magic) techniques, still

learning to feel and move energy and get comfortable with the notion

that every single thing we thought about ourselves and others for an

entire lifetime was most likely, completely wrong and needs re-writing now.



Your German prac manual doesn't have the Level 2 technique of Thought

Flow in it because of that - it's from the advanced practitioner

curriculum. Strictly speaking, the Heart Healing belongs to that as well

but it's just too helpful and handy so it was "inserted" into the

Practitioner Level after the fact.







> This post is as cluttered as I feel at the moment. But I want to start

> getting tips forum you experienced ET practioners and players alike

> *before* reaching enlighenment :D. Next post will be more evolved ...



Tehe. I saw a quote the other day, what was it?



"If a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, then what is an

empty desk a sign of ...?" Attributed to Einstein.



On my desk at the moment is, amongst other things:



- "The Pharaoh's Eyes" symbol set on a red velvet cloth with the only

symbol turned face up is "The Dance".



- Three boxes with dichroics.



- A stack of envelopes containing single semi-precious and precious

stones for jewellry making from Russia, Afghanistan, Australia, Brazil,

and Lithuania.



- A first edition copy of "Gypsy Sorcery" by Leland.



- My Project Sanctuary notebook, current edition.



- My AromaEnergy Notebook, current edition.



- One bottle of Sage, one of Angelica, and one bottle of "StarFields

Extra Strong Magic Mix", secret recipe.



- One mirrored sculpture of a Lord Ashar.



- A mug of coffee in an auspicious "Internet Nerd" cup.



- An SAS army knife (for ritual purposes).



- 15 sheets of notes on "how to market the Genius Symbols".



- A yellow plastic ruler.



- An Eidorol mp3 recorder and a Canon SLR.



- A book on "How to draw fantasy dragons".



- One laptop with serious essential oil burns on keyboard, case and

touchpad.



- A small indoor crucible.



Well that's what I'm willing to own up to, there's more ...



Show me your desk and I show you who you are - LOL!!!



Let's clutter some more.



Let's INCREASE THE COMPLEXITY until there's a breakthrough shift and

clarity rains upon us supreme.



I like when that happens ... :-)



Keep up the good work!



SFX :-)



NB Heart Healing MP3 available free from www.dragonrising.com/downloads/



I recommend to use it a few times to get used to the movements and

energy shifts so it's on automatic pilot and a learned behaviour when a

moment of crisis comes along.

That original message from this thread was from Sun May 25, 2003.



Wow.



Five years ago.



"It's been a long road ..."



SFX

--- In emotrance2@yahoogroups.com, Silvia Hartmann <sfx@...> wrote:

> Yeah. What IMMEDIATELY sprang to mind is Heart Healing. It centers you

> on your heart of energy and puts whatever you've got to give THERE in

> preference to anywhere else.

Thank you very much for this most welcome reminder :):):). These days

I tend to forget how efficient the most basic tools can be it seems

:). Although it took me some  time to acknowledge that, it really

*did* help. And like Thought Flow, it's so easy you can't do any harm

with it. Even my f***ed up mind didn't find any harmfulness so this

must be the case :D.



> This stabilises - well EVERYTHING. It's just incredible how a few extra

> percent of energy going through the energy heart transforms our

feelings

> and thoughts about - yeah well everything!

Right, it surprises me every time anew, like "I can't believe it's so

simple, there must be a catch somewhere!" Threw that over my shoulder :P.



> Just putting your hands on your heart, taking two or three deep breaths

> and thinking/saying strongly, "What I have to give, I give to you!" is

> superb safety anchor and instant energy calming technique. When I used

> to do this a lot, I could fairly feel and hear the wheels grinding to a

> halt, then starting to spin in the opposite direction and gravity

wasn't

> an issue anymore, everything seemed lighter, the lights got brighter

and

> there was this HUGE sense of relief.

Yeah, this sentence is really the centre, and so ...



> NB Heart Healing MP3 available free from www.dragonrising.com/downloads/

>

> I recommend to use it a few times to get used to the movements and

> energy shifts so it's on automatic pilot and a learned behaviour when a

> moment of crisis comes along.

... for me this version is even better than the one in the 2008 intro

Book (The article there concerning heart healing was the one that

finally convinced me to do it on a regular basis :D), as the "What I

have to give, I give to you!" part is spoken alod, not just thought,

and so much more clear :).



By the way, thanks for this Lullaby HypnoDream of yours, it really

helped me yesterday to get to sleep after a very frightful day :). I

recall was still awake at the second loop was playing, but somehow it

must have catched me then even with my mind running "Whis won't work!

After this hour you'll still be f***ing awake!" all the time :D :).

So, as I woke up my back hurt bad. Not what I would have expected, but

this had me finally realize that this newspaper delivering job I hab

been doing all the early mornings, six days a week, since June, had

NOT been to the liking of my back (I have had back pains for years and

so on) and that this small amount of money isn't worth me being in

back pain sometimes the rest of the day or even longer and having to

lay down for hours after 6 am, when I'm done with the daily delivering.

So, to make a long story short, It's really cool that I could buy,

download, burn on CD and hear this thing in a very short time just

when needed. I love the Internet :).



I think some ED is due now, and then some Heart Healing. I have been

kind of afraid to overdo it, I recall, but no I think, my Energy Heart

wouldn't really midn if I did it a dozen times straight if the need

should arise :).



Phew, what a lot of words :D.



Good Night to all :).



Here rain ist still cleaning the city as of now :).



Max.

> > This stabilises - well EVERYTHING. It's just incredible how a few

extra

> > percent of energy going through the energy heart transforms our

> feelings

> > and thoughts about - yeah well everything!

> Right, it surprises me every time anew, like "I can't believe it's so

> simple, there must be a catch somewhere!" Threw that over my

shoulder :P.



LOL yes and welcome to my world!



Just EVERY time I get some major, major breakthrough thing happening

it is so EMBARRASSINGLY SIMPLE you just have to shake your head and

say, "What the ...!"



Whether it is ...



... the Harmony Program: "Give a system what it needs and it flows

smoothly."



... EmoTrance: "Emotions are feedback devices from the Energy Body."



... Project Sanctuary: "Don't analyse it, PLAY THE GAME!"



... TGS: "Hey, let's make symbols that look like what they're supposed

to represent!"



... it is really remarkable how that seems to work.



Where DO all these bizarre over-complications come from?!



Oh that's purely rethorical - I don't care. Let's spend our time

trying to correct them and build something more elegant instead,

that's far more worthwhile in every way.



Forward or to hell, my friend!



> > NB Heart Healing MP3 available free from

www.dragonrising.com/downloads/

> >

> > I recommend to use it a few times to get used to the movements and

> > energy shifts so it's on automatic pilot and a learned behaviour

when a

> > moment of crisis comes along.

> ... for me this version is even better than the one in the 2008 intro

> Book (The article there concerning heart healing was the one that

> finally convinced me to do it on a regular basis :D), as the "What I

> have to give, I give to you!" part is spoken alod, not just thought,

> and so much more clear :).



Ananga and I put a lot of heartfelt energy into that and really did

our best with it; that's why its always been on free download, to find

people in need and hopefully, make a contribution where it is needed most.



Thank you for your kind words!



> By the way, thanks for this Lullaby HypnoDream of yours, it really

> helped me yesterday to get to sleep after a very frightful day :). I

> recall was still awake at the second loop was playing, but somehow it

> must have catched me then even with my mind running "Whis won't work!

> After this hour you'll still be f***ing awake!" all the time :D :).

> So, as I woke up my back hurt bad. Not what I would have expected, but

> this had me finally realize that this newspaper delivering job I hab

> been doing all the early mornings, six days a week, since June, had

> NOT been to the liking of my back (I have had back pains for years and

> so on) and that this small amount of money isn't worth me being in

> back pain sometimes the rest of the day or even longer and having to

> lay down for hours after 6 am, when I'm done with the daily delivering.

> So, to make a long story short, It's really cool that I could buy,

> download, burn on CD and hear this thing in a very short time just

> when needed. I love the Internet :).



Yes! I do too :-)



Quit that job and you'll find something better I'm sure. The back's a

pretty important piece of kit in this incarnation.



Which also applies to mine, I must get off of the computer now and

seriously do something else!



Very glad Lullaby did the job for you :-)



My favourite story of that one is the review I got from a guy who put

a roomful of people who were totally strung out on amphetamines to

sleep in 15 minutes!



It's a good piece of kit to have. It's one of those we made

essentially so that *we* should have it handy when the need would

arise. But that could be the case for everything I guess :-)



> I think some ED is due now, and then some Heart Healing. I have been

> kind of afraid to overdo it, I recall, but no I think, my Energy Heart

> wouldn't really midn if I did it a dozen times straight if the need

> should arise :).

>

> Phew, what a lot of words :D.

>

> Good Night to all :).

>

> Here rain ist still cleaning the city as of now :).

>

> Max.



Cooling rain here too. It's good for sleeping and snuggling up!



And a goodnite to you too :-)



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