Hey all,

I'm trying to get over some serious social phobia/self-consciousness with ET
and though I had some initial success and was almost completely free of it
for a week after focusing on the energies I felt when my symptoms became
strong, it all came back probably because my core beliefs hadn't changed.

At the reccommendation of some experienced ET people I tried to focus on
where the energy was "stopping" when saying some positive affirmations ("I
deserve to be happy", "I'm outgoing", etc.). The problem is, when I say
these things all I feel is a general numbness, and a TINY bit of energy in
the front of my face and in my chest, but so little that I have trouble
focusing on it at all.

I'm convinced it's a shield problem (what else could it be since I can't
feel the energy?) but I really don't get how to remove the shield. I've read
how to do it in both Oceans of Energy and The Love Clinic but am still
confused. I can't locate where the energy "stops" specifically because I
don't really feel it at all (even though I have a definite thought of
"that's not true" when saying the positive affirmations)

Since I can't locate where the problem is due to not being able to feel
where it is I'm having trouble with the whole "make a small hole and let in
a little energy at a time". I mean, I've tried to visualize that with my
body but then I feel that I'm just "making it up" in my head which I know
isn't how ET is supposed to work. I can't feel the energy that I need to be
"letting in a little at a time" and so don't know even where to make the
hole.

Thanks. Very eager to get this problem out of my life. It's been a long time
coming.

-Leighton


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