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From: emotrance2@yahoogroups.com [mailto:emotrance2@yahoogroups.com] On
Behalf Of vinkie35
Sent: 08 May 2005 23:08
To: emotrance2@yahoogroups.com
Subject: [ET2] Re: Shields or just too good to be true?


Silvia,

What you wrote down here is very true I think. Maybe there is
something still in my enery matrix but it will come to surface when
it is time to deal with it.

Isn't it weird that a rape can change you so much. I know the whole
thing of me being overweight has to do with me being raped as my
first sexual experience. I this thing was bad at the time, but it
never seemed to weight as much as the feeling that I simply wasn't
acceptable.

I just thought I had dealt with it. It just never sprung to my mind
as something that I still had to solve. Till the moment I realised
that my fat was a protection device for letting people get to close
to me.

I don't know nothing about Louise Hay, but could have the powerloss
you feel have anything to do with you feeling powerless at the time
the rape happened?

I don't know, just my two cents worth. I really hope your pain will
subside soon. I will sent you some healing energy. In fact I just
did. It was a great ball of sunlike yellow energy. I hope it will do
something good for you.

Bright yellow sunshine waves,
Margreet>>


Thank you for the yellow sun ball :-)

Very nice and warming :-)

Hm, the fatness.

I wonder ...

I've never really tried any weight loss programmes or gone on any diets
but just recently (perhaps a week ago?) it occurred to me to start doing
something about the excess baggage I'm carrying around.

(A fun fact - those folk who want to send me to the gym to lift weights
and such, make them carry what I carry and never ever get to put down
and see how fit they get doing THAT for a few decades! LOL!)

I really wonder now if the PTSD style flashback was linked to starting
on a chain of events that will lead to weight loss?

I found a new set of spells (for me) which I thought might well work for
weightloss which is what caused me to have a go for the first time.

How's this for an idea.

As long as one keeps the status quo (weight as it is) the old systems
also remain in status quo.

One changes one, the other also changes.

And as it changes, it makes its presence felt?

Very interesting.

SFX



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