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From: emotrance2@yahoogroups.com [mailto:emotrance2@yahoogroups.com] On
Behalf Of vinkie35


>>Then I attended the Living Energy workshop in Eastbourne. In the
first day when Nicola trained us to be practitioners we did an
practice about finding your oldest burden or your deepest secret. I
couldn't find anything so I picked something recent that had
bothered me but didn't have the charge that was meant.

Later we had a tea break and it suddenly came to me like lightning.
It all became very obvious. As my assignment in this life was to
learn to accept myself and that was something I did at that moment,
there was no need anymore to find all those awful things, because
they simply weren't important anymore.

Anything that has happened at school and after was just meant to
push me to resolve my problem.

When this insight came to me, I even accepted myself more. I wasn't
blocking things, I was just allright. <<<


Margreet,

thank you for picking up this thread and posting this.

I've had the original message in my inbox and have read it a number of
times but there was something that wouldn't come in response.

The question is an important one.

And one that I'm sitting here with quite painfully at the moment,
literally!

I think it is possible that BOTH are right and AT THE SAME TIME, both
being:

1. There IS STILL old stuff in the energy matrix that STILL needs
attention;

AND

2. It isn't important because it is of the past, and we're actually very
alright indeed.


That doesn't seem to make any sense at first but bear with me.

I am beginning to come to the conclusion that by TRYING TO FIX THE PAST
something happens to our general time orientation - a simplification
would be to say that we then ORIENTATE TOWARDS the past and also thus,
re-live the past.

But that doesn't actually fix what needs fixing because this is going to
be taking place in the future and NOT in the past.

It's like that saying "A watched pot never boils".

Something happens, like a slowing down, like Archimedes' turtle that
never gets there because it halves, and halves again.

I've got some "big issues" in my past and I've tried to resolve those
with all sorts of things over the years, but it never worked or did
anything.

So from 2003 onwards, I played with different time orientations and
formulated the theory that healing takes place in the relative future
and nowhere else at all.

As I always do, I implement my theories upon my own life and conduct,
best as I can and it certainly put the skates under my incarnation in a
big way. Now, there was and is a future and it's coming FAST, much
faster than I ever knew.

I'm getting much better at a number of time related phenomena, such as
time distortion, both ways; precognition is improving; there's been
significant reduction in all manner of stressors and the reality
creation works a whole lot better.

"Hey!" Silvia thinks, "it's really true! This is working! Whoohoo! The
past is immaterial!"

And then, out of the blue last week, bam! I have this complete state
flashback to an old rape scenario, completely there and full on, with
kinaesthetics so strong, I could really feel those hands holding me
down, not being able to breathe, the whole lot.

Now look.

I've been in personal development for - EVER, decades.

I've been to all sorts of trainings and workshops, done so many
different techniques, drills and exercises it is unbelievable really,
and that was never, ever there AT ALL.

And here we are, the sun is shining, the birds are singing, and there it
is.

I got hold of it with EmoTrance and was astonished how easily it
dissolved and flowed away, leaving me very clear but utterly astonished.

Why NOW?

Why and HOW and WHERE did this come from - when I'd finally STOPPED
DIGGING FOR IT?

A watched pot never boils.

Well I stopped watching the pot and then it boiled. Boiled over, in
fact. At which point I took it off the cooker and turned the gas off.

Ah and what did I do then?

I fell right back into this whole thing of "Gotcha! AHA! NOW I can
finally get my therapy going for this!" - and on the way to doing just
that, something weird happened in my lower back and now I'm sitting
here, crippled with mysterious attack of sciatica which I haven't had
since I was 25 or so.

Duh!

If I could get up from this chair without major agony, I'd get out my
old Louise Hay "Heal Your Life!" and look up what she has to say about
sciatica.

Anybody got a copy?

LOL ...

But I am well pleased that I've always said that I don't know all there
is to know yet and I probably never will until after I'm dead, well, you
can hope, can't ya :-)


Immobilised but otherwise amused waves,

SFX


PS: Before anyone asks.

I've done ET for it, of course. It is pleasant and warm and takes the
pain away but does nothing for that complete "powerloss" in the lower
back - a really weird thing that is, trying to do anything without the
lower back, and very difficult. Give yours a loving greeting, it's
amazing what it does for you all the time!

I've also done EFT for it and the results were very similar.

Interim choice of treatment: Sit still, let it sort itself out and focus
on the future by engaging in activities for that purpose.

And keep chirpy :-)




Silvia Hartmann
http://StarFields.org