Hi Don,

I must say that it could be true. Something like this happened to me
also. I was always a person who couldn't accept myself. I tried
several things and found out in regression therapy that my main
issue in this life was to learn to accept myself.

I tried some more regression therapy to find out how to do this,
how could find this core issue about me being not good enough. All
I could find was a terrible fear. I really got sick of fear. So I
thought, well this must be something enormous, it will cost me lots
and lots of time to solve this. But I was determined to solve the
problem.

And I ran into EFT. I knew this could be an answer to my problems. I
tried this but it didn't work. Or maybe it did, because when I
attended a workshop from Steve Wells and David Lake, I just
discovered what my enormous fear was. I felt somehow that if I would
accept myself I would die.

At this workshop I could make a start with solving this problem.
Later I went to see an EFT therapist and in a three hour session my
fear and problem were resolved.

I thought then, well that was that, now let's look back at my past.
I have been bullied and ignored at school, and similar things
happened in my life after school. This was pretty hard stuff and I
thought I still had to release a lot.

But searching for this in my mind, there was nothing. Situations I
remembered simply didn't bring any emotion. I thought that I was
blocking this again and that I had to work harder.

Then I attended the Living Energy workshop in Eastbourne. In the
first day when Nicola trained us to be practitioners we did an
practice about finding your oldest burden or your deepest secret. I
couldn't find anything so I picked something recent that had
bothered me but didn't have the charge that was meant.

Later we had a tea break and it suddenly came to me like lightning.
It all became very obvious. As my assignment in this life was to
learn to accept myself and that was something I did at that moment,
there was no need anymore to find all those awful things, because
they simply weren't important anymore.

Anything that has happened at school and after was just meant to
push me to resolve my problem.

When this insight came to me, I even accepted myself more. I wasn't
blocking things, I was just allright.

I hope my story makes sense to you. As english is not my native
language I couldn't tell it any better.

Margreet



--- In emotrance2@yahoogroups.com, "Don Wells" <dwells2530@y...>
wrote:
> Greetings listers,
>
> I have been studying Silvia Hartmans writings now for over a year
> and have recently reviewed the Oceans of Energy for the second
time.
> It's amazing just how much you get out of the second time around
> that just didnt sink in on the first pass!I am using the simple
> technique for some amazing changes in clients and look forward to
> the day I can actually attend a workshop. Unfortunately, I live
> rather remotely from the main hubs where the workshops are placed.
>
> I have an uncanny feeling that after utilizing EFT for a bit over
a
> year now that I cant possibly have chased all my own demons away
> could I? When I attempt some tests for shields on myself I just
dont
> get anything but the occasional yawning which seems to be my
> standard release from EFT and which is now automatic without the
> full tapping. Just the thought of a problem seems to trigger the
> effect. It seems to ahve jumped over to Emotrance also rather
> quickly.
>
> I have deep down dirt on myself that I cant imagine has been
totally
> vanquished by EFT alone? When I try to access this stuff
absolutely
> no response as far as a "feeling' someplace.Neither do I feel that
> resistant feeling I recognize when something or someone wants to
get
> too close etc.I am just not sure I really recognize a deeply
buried
> or hidden shield or is it I have shielded the shields? Sorta feels
> that way. On the other hand little bothers me and I can say that
for
> sure as I am in a very stressful situation at the moment. Again
this
> might be some adapted shield mechanism, I am just not sure? Any
> hints from practitioners would be most welcome. Perhaps I am just
> not willing to accept this peacefull calm and need something to
stir
> me up?
>
> Don