I got the wedding invitation from my friends that I call Mommy n Papa Bear
today. I told my mother that even tho it's cutting it close at least I got it.
Which I knew I would. Mother said that since I've never met them in person and
I don't know how they would act around me in person, theyre not my real
friends, cuz I guess you cant have telephone or online friends that you become
close
to. Well then I guess the rest of my "adopted" family is nothing huh? My
"adopted" brother in Texas has spent Lord knows how manty hours on the phone
with
me, talking to me about my life and what Mother does, my triggers, etc. Which
really helps cuz he's a psychology major (I keep waiting for him to me n the
rest of his friends that he "counsels"- :"That'll be 250$ please!") I guess the
nights I called my "adopted" big sister cuz I had a really bad nightmare,
someone said no one was gonna love me cuz I didn't love myself, etc, I guess she
didn't really conside4r me a friend when she did that huh? I suppose that when
I call my "Mommy" countless times in a day I guess she's s'posed to hang up
on me cuz we're not really friends.

Anna


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