painful
seems to never
go away
it's endless

heartbreak
broken hearts
rejection
heartache

another year
without him
it's been
three years now

eight, almost nine
since the first one
decided he didn't
want me

friends drift
in and out
of my life
disappar forever

it hurts
to yet again
be turned away
rejected

my dreams
fantasies
my secret world
all i have

two people
i care
so much about
rejection hurts

knowing
it can't be
understanding
fine with it

in most ways
it's not so bad
cuz at least
friends for life

but when it's
cold and i
start to cry
i still wish

just need someone
to love me
care about me
hold on

dying inside
wanting wishing
it to be real
but i know it's not


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