my name is anna, i'm 25 years old, and I live in WI with my parents and
uncle. I suffer from depression, have pervasive developmental disorder (a form
of
autism that is mostly found in children), have mild cerebral palsy, am visually
impaired (cannot drive). I have attempted suicide, been hospitalized, and am
a victim/survivor of sexual and minor physical abuse. I currently suffer with
emotional/verbal abuse from the ppl I live with, and certain others around me.
I run my own support groups, both on yahoo and on msn- feel free to ask. I've
been doing that for about a year and a half now- theyre not doing as good as
i'd like but hey nobody's perfect right? I formed them cuz i figured that even
tho there're other groups out there, i could create my own to try to support
others in my own way. I'm not the best owner/moderator- i'll admit that
openly- but i am going to try harder.
I have an "adopted" family- I have two brothers (one estranged sorta), three
sisters (four disowned) in scattered parts of the U.S. I also have a mom and
dad that live in AL, and an aunt in Canada. Five of the members of my "adopted"
family are my biggest supporters, and I have no idea what I would do without
them. I always say that if it weren't for them I would not be alive, and I
know that a great deal of that is the truth.
I am currently not doing well emotionally, due to conflicts of my heart that
I can't get into. Basically a crush on someone that I know won't go anywhere,
and I'm fine with that. But when the nights are long I sure do get lonely-
which I guess is to be expected. I haven't had a serious relationship in awhile,
and I don't want one. If it weren't for this guy I have a crush on, I would go
insane cuz of all the bull$hit I deal with from guys (and girls- I'm
bisexual). It keeps me sane, keeps me from bad relationships, keeps me from
getting
with ppl (friends or otherwise) that will hurt me.
I'm trying to learn to get rid of those that hurt me, and it's very hard. But
I know that I can get thru it, with lots of understanding and support. But
that's not easy cuz a few ppl out there don't really care for me but that is
okay becuz u can't expect everyone to like u right? lol.
I can be very emotional, very b**chy, and think only of myself, but i had a
new years resolution to try to be there for others, and I'll be damned if i
fail.


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