Whew where do I start......okay i am 52 f happily married children
and grandchildren. I have been a "healer" since around 4 years
old...no wayyyyyyy near Cayce but, I have helped mannnnnnnny.

There is a down fall to it...I can not seem to heal myself, nor read
for myself.

I am always having someone knock at our door or call for help and i
always go I do not know why I have not asked this group for help
before for myself it almost makes me feel guilty.

Here is the medical.........7 years ago i had a gastric bypass..
(360lbs).with in 4 days i was throwing up 15-30 times a day...it did
not matter if it was solid food or liquids...a sip of water sometimes
would not even stay down....well needless to say i kept going back to
the doctor complaining and telling him I was still in pain..the
throwing up he would say well it sometimes happens but, it will calm
down...NEVER DID...kept going back next thing u know he has moved to
a different city...then his partner moved then the clinic was
gone...I went to every doctor and had more weird test in machines
than i could count....i could not get a doctor to open me up just to
take a look........i live in ariz........finally i found a doctor who
would and he was in NEW JERSEY.........so i flew out there he opened
me up and apparently when the surgery was originally done 4 years
before my intestines had gotten twisted which he fixed and we all
felt the problem was over.......now by this time i was so malnurised
and under weight they decided to put a feeding tube in my
stomach..they took me and put me in a xray machine NUMBED the area
with ladocaine and started cutting and shoving a tube around i kept
screaming while they held me down the radioligist kept craming it
around till he finally said okay it is in.........
With in the first time they turned on the TPN (liquid food stuff) i
could feel it running all around inside NOT MY STOMACH...i told the
doctor this....after 24 hours and his next day revisit i told him it
was not going in my stomach i could feel it running everywhere...i
was told i did not know what i was talking about and that i was going
to die with out the feeding tube....blah blah blah........well i was
correct.......emergency surgery AND THEY TRIED OVER HOURS TO SUCK OUT
AS MUCH OF THE stuff as they could and put the tube IN THE CORRECT
place..........i was to be there 4 days to 7 days.....my mother in
law was with me...we ran out of money so the nurses were hiding her
out with in the hospital or taking her home...plus giving her meal
tickets so she could eat...i of course was in ICU...after 1 month she
was loosing her mind so she flew back to Ariz..I was on many anti
infection meds.... made it out of ICU and to a regular room and
started to eat real food and keep it down...i had the feeding tube in
still but they were not using it...plus i had 2 different drain bags
to try to get out what they may have missed...finally i got "well
enough to go home to ariz..2 weeks later i was in a coma...and flown
to Phoenix...of which i had a wonderfullllllll 6 month visit and many
more surgeries...then 1 month in nursing home to relearn to
walk...they sent me home after taking 16 steps with a walker...all
tubes where removed.........

oh yes i also weighed 84 pounds at this time.....after 2 months at
home we were filling out hospice papers but, i started to feel a bit
better so i never went into hospice. i did have home health nurses
and my family took very good care of me....we will not mention the
size of the bed sores..

okay that was just to give u back ground........oh it has been 2 1/2
years since i got home. and i now weigh 140lbs and am doing good
considering... I am on total disability. (permanant)

The only medication I take now is very very high doses of pain
medication...for all the abdominal pain from all this mess.....i am
going to a different pain management doctor Today is my first
visit.and i want off...YES OFF.....of all this....i am going to do it
with the doctors help but, please i can not find any information
about it in any of cayce books I have, plus all of the great healers
I knew have all ready crossed over.....And to be truthfull I was so
sure that i was not going to live that untill the past month i
considered myself terminal...not any more....

Any information anyone could send me would be greatly appreciated.

Oh yes no there is ot going to be any law suits so please do not
email me about it....

Sorry for typos and miss spelled words.....

It is so rare that I reach out for help for myself instead of asking
for help for others....please take this as a honest plea for help.

Melanie