... Dear Fred, I'm so glad you are into it and of course you'll stay on the list. I decided to screen new people to make it a safer place to share if people ...
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Feb 1, 2000 5:21 pm
Unmitigated joy that is quiet and steady Has taken control and now I am quite ready For Life Ellie, I am gaining new ground every day. Just feeling so great. ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 1, 2000 7:29 pm
... Dear Micah, I'm so pleased to hear from you. I too was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety disorder...and like you I was under psychiatric...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 2, 2000 1:57 pm
Ellie, I must have been delirious to have thought that I was well already. Went to work today and had an inner battle all day with smoldering resentment of my...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 2, 2000 2:05 pm
... replay of my childhood, please be encouraged Micah, it is not permanent. I too read that and took it upon myself to believe it was not permanent because...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 2, 2000 4:22 pm
At Caron, where I went for a program for Adult Children from Dysfunctional Families, they taught us to confront abusive remarks from others by saying calmly if...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 2, 2000 4:58 pm
Post flood is an arbitrary point I've chosen when about 95% of the repressed anger related to childhood is out and the major mood swings are over. It's not...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 12:19 pm
... Dear Cindy, I'm happy you want to stay on the list and am not pressuring people to share, in fact, I like to keep the posts short so it is not too ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 2:08 pm
... (explanation of post flood) which helped me to see that I will still have a lot of symptoms of codependency. Had a wonderful day at work and my co-workers...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 2:18 pm
... workedfor a boss that belittled me all the time, made fun of my weight, I was 20lbs overweight, style was loose dreseses, he say if I was eating something ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 2:27 pm
... people to like you', I noticed recently the thought doesn't enter my mind, will they like me, or that deep seeded desire, and let me say I have wanted...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 4:55 pm
... wanting to pass along the information to her that I had an experience that I'm positive is identical to the one she had when she was younger, where I ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 5:16 pm
... pinpoint why actually. I have a good friend she is 62, her daugher, who has another gift shop in our city, a few blocks away, now mind you our city is ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 5:42 pm
... but after I did, I reread my journal of 15 years ago and I used the word 'flood' of emotions that came that week of my most significant release. IT's the...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 3, 2000 5:54 pm
... becoming post flood and then just staying in a standstill, maybe we could call those years of not redirecting something, since it's been 15 yearsafter the ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 11:50 am
... within, I read all the right stuff, believed all the right things,tried retraining my mind to think on good things, etc. ,all to no avail. I just couldn't...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 12:32 pm
... apply to my case directly. Guess what.. I ended up highlighting the entire article (under 'Self therapy' sub-title). I can't wait to pound on my 1st ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 12:40 pm
Hello Ellie, I've been on the list now for two months. I want to inform you that yes, I'm still interested in receiving your mails. I'm into primal/regressive...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 12:45 pm
... but I just wouldn't do it. I became increasingly irritable and could not think clearly. Finally, I found myself letting down my guard and I just quietly ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 1:30 pm
... Welcome aboard, I hope you find that the the power of healing is within you. Ellie...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 5:58 pm
... I'm still dealing with my parents' complete dismissal of my art and music talent. I've shown my silk paintings in a gallery, but my mother asked me not to...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 4, 2000 6:05 pm
... such complete @@ses. It was just absurd. Their behavior was pretty much accepted. But if I called them on it and let them know I saw what was going on,...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 10:40 am
During the detox crises (excitatory nervous symptoms) excess adrenaline is being released from neurons and flows through the blood stream. This means that some...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 10:53 am
Thomas Stone's book Cure by Crying has some good tips about finding movies to help trigger the emotions, both anger and grief. I read that prisoners are not...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 11:28 am
... Dear Tina, Of course our parents did the best they could...they too were victims of the same, often subtle abuse. You might read Alice Miller's book, For ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 12:18 pm
... I heard yesterday there is something wrong with her mind from a cousin of mine. Guess the toxic chemicals are paying their dues on her, poor soul. Man has...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 12:38 pm
Ellie, I also when I wrote back to my brother, he has sent me via email a picture of his new 5 year old daughter on an attachment, I wrote back a separate...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 5, 2000 4:13 pm
... Blessings, Tina Dear Tina, "I became extremely angry that she'd even brought me into this world" Sounds like when you were banging on the drum, but...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 6, 2000 2:07 pm
... Dear Tina, 'feeling despondent and worthless,' more anger turned inward, try to do some more pounding when you feel this way. It's your parents voices in ...
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Elnora Van Winkle
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Feb 6, 2000 2:22 pm
... ting to know them and perhaps have them over for dinner and become buddies!! And every time I had anger or resentment at someone, I felt horribly guilty...
