I have only begun the freedom of my anger.  Ahh the release of such toxins as the hitting of the bed comes into play.  It is an exhausting time afterwards.  I feel as if I had left something behind me... I have all the old crap (sorry).  It is as if all the stuff I have been lugging around with me wash out of me. 

This is when rest comes into it for me.  I rest with a book, or a walk around the block.  There is so much more bed whacking to come... and as Ellie has told me the forgiveness will also be authentic.  This is truly a blessing in my life... Thank you Ellie for all you have done.  Your struggle and pain was not in vain as you give back the freedom you studied professionally and applied personally.  This is another step to my recovery.

Bless you,  S.

 

Thank you for sharing this, and please don't thank me, but thank God who decided it's time we understood the biology of how our minds work. The toxic mind theory was a gift from God, and I am just passing it on to those who are "ready to hear." And please don't apologize for the word "crap"....it is crap that got stuck in the neurons of our brains, and I'm glad to hear it is washing out of your brain, and it will bring you permanent rest....a susatainable peace of mind.  And yes, the forgiveness will be authentic when all the crap is gone, and you will  have true love and compassion for others, even for those who still abuse you. Bless you for "working it." Ellie