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Hello Ellie:
I had a lots of work to do and I also felt pretty down this
week. It has been a tough week - both at work and in my out-of work lives. I
coped pretty well with the tough week at work. But on this week quite a deep
depression came back again and I felt really low sometimes - I still kept
redirecting, although it did not always help to alter my mood at least for a
while. Sometimes I feel it is a neverending battle. Maybe the reason for my
scepticism is that last week I had a pretty good week. I felt quite good and
strong and this week when depression returned again I felt it like a falling
back to the hole. Maybe my situation is actually better than 2 weeks ago but
I am comparing the current situation to the last weeks' situation. Maybe I
am just too impatient. I know that fight against depression is also about
will power because if it hits 100 times 100 times you have to fight it back
consciously and not to give in because then you can start again. All these
promised benefits of after-depression state seem so far away sometimes. The
other thing is that sometimes I doubt whether I can ever really fight and be
assertive about my needs and wants.
But still somewhere deep there, there is a voice saying keep continuing -
although besides you I do not get too much support I want to get out from depression and I believe I can do it although it is a long and tough journey. Regards, R.
Hi,
You will be assertive when you need to be in time, I know it's a long road.
Keep redirecting, sometimes you have to just go through the depression, and know it will lift, but othertimes you can pull out of it, NOT BY WILL POWER, but by doing some redirecting. If you are not getting any 'highs' when you do the redirecting, this is actually a good sign, When you are PF you will not have these highs, and will have to continue the redirecting but your depression should be pretty much gone.
Listen to that voice within saying to keep going...it's not a road to always feeling good, but you will have a 'sustainable' peace of mind.
Ellie
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