Latley I realize that I'm scared to continue releasing anger, because I

feel like I'm completly going to loose myself. I am very confused because my

values are off. I don't know who I am anymore. I'm loosing myself and I

don't know what's gonna happen once I'm postflood. To get to that point is

very scary to me. I just can't see an end to this. The depression and

confusion is terrible. And to make it worst I changed my diet last weekend,

because my body felt so bad by me eating all this crazy food. So now I eat

mostly raw fruit and vegtable and grains (I love carbohydrates, so I'm not

sure if I will ever be able to shake that). I haven't eaten candy since

Sunday. And I'm just doing it without any great effort, isn't that crazy. I

feel bad and I don't eat comfort food! I guess that's a progress. Actually I

already know the answer to my question, but I want to share this with

someone who has been through this and understands what I'm going through -

Natalie

 

Thanks for sharing this, and congratulations on the food changes. These changes will make your symptoms more intense for a while. This is a good thing and will speed your recovery. Keep redirecting. As long as you redirect during the periodic detox crises, you won't lose it. Don't worry if you need sedating foods at times, the cravings will not subside for a long time, even through the muddy basin period which can be a good year or more. But when you are post flood your symptoms will be less intense and less often.